SET LIST 12 — Wounded Masculinity (Silhouettes of Pride)

Trigger Warning – Set List Twelve (12) Set List 12 is an unflinching exploration of trauma, mental illness, and relational collapse. It contains explicit portrayals of depression, suicide, self-harm, emotional manipulation, domestic conflict, psychological abuse, abandonment trauma, and identity dissolution. Several tracks are written from multiple perspectives, including those of parents, partners, and victims, and the set does not offer comfort, resolution, or redemption. This is not a safe or neutral listen for vulnerable audiences. The set includes extremely graphic content relating to suicide and self-harm. In Clinical Depression, for example, there is a stark narrative of a young woman preparing to die by overdose, including explicit depictions of her parents' aftermath. Themes of perfection pressure, emotional neglect, and the finality of loss dominate this track, which alone may be unsafe for anyone experiencing suicidal ideation, recent grief from suicide, or depression with feelings of worthlessness. Themes of untreated mental illness and emotional collapse run throughout tracks such as Underrated, Victim of Fate, Empty Eyes, and Smiles and Frowns. These songs depict emotional numbness, anhedonia, dissociation, identity erosion, and surrender as a coping mechanism, leaving the listener in a persistent state of hopelessness without relief or redemption. Toxic relationships and emotional abuse are central to songs like This Very Room and Get Outta My House. This Very Room presents psychological torment with gaslighting, jealousy, and haunting memories of past partners, blurring the boundaries between past and present relationships. Get Outta My House portrays domestic conflict through verbal and physical violence, where dark humor does little to soften the impact of spousal aggression and humiliation. Shame, guilt, and self-blame appear strongly in Bite of the Apple, On the Rocks, and Valentine's Woes, reflecting infidelity, secrecy, moral failure, and emotional guilt, often intertwined with parent-child dynamics framed by shame and fear. Romantic idealism collapses into self-reproach across these tracks. Misogyny, bitterness, and emotional hostility emerge moderately in Empty Eyes, Dora, and Smitty's Anthem, presenting anger toward women, resentment after rejection, and emotional detachment as a defensive strategy, potentially triggering for survivors of verbal or emotional abuse. Additional recurring themes include depression framed as moral failure, parents unknowingly contributing to psychological harm, irreversible consequences of silence, emotional isolation even within relationships, memory as a form of torture, love morphing into surveillance, self-worth tied to romantic validation, and emotional exile following romantic abandonment. Overall, this set does not offer healing. It documents collapse, aftermath, and regret. There is no triumphant arc, reassurance, or "it gets better" framing. Listeners may experience emotional flooding, rumination, resurfacing grief, dissociation, and sudden mood drops. This set should be avoided by anyone currently depressed or suicidal, individuals in early recovery from self-harm, those with unresolved trauma related to family pressure or emotional neglect, people grieving a suicide, or anyone seeking comfort, motivation, or hope. Conversely, it may be appropriate for those intentionally processing grief with professional support, writers or clinicians examining mental illness narratives, and listeners seeking unfiltered realism who understand this as documentation rather than endorsement. Set List Twelve is brutally honest. Honesty does not make it safe, and it must be clearly labeled, warned, and approached with care. Listener discretion is not just advised—it is necessary. WOUNDED MASCULINITY (SILHOUETTES OF PRIDE) SET LIST TWELVE (12) 1 Bite Of the Apple 2 Empty Eyes 3 On the Rocks 4 Smitty's Anthem 5 Victim of Fate 6 Dora 7 Get Outta My House 8 Valentine's Woes 9 This Very Room 10 Smiles and Frowns 11 Underrated 12 Clinical Depression (1) BITE OF THE APPLE I come home after a hard, long day Happy with my life but what a price I pay I walk in waiting for a smile Though looking down, you stand so quiet Something is bothering you I know you by now, you just can't deny it Did the serpent come to tempt your taste? Have you seen the devil? Did you fall from grace? Have you taken a bite of the apple? Did you drink up all the wine? Did you see something so frightening That it sent shivers down your spine? Did you see a long lost lover Only to look again into his eyes? Or maybe you saw a homeless mother And then heard her child cry? Whatever you do from here Do not hide what you are or what you did Please don't keep staring at the ground Nor keep your feelings hid Please don't twist the truth so much That you only tell me lies I would never judge you You do not need an alibi Tell me all your worries My child do not be afraid Tell me of your troubles For mistakes can be unmade Whatever has happened here Don't be scared to look me in the eyes You know your face is one that I never could despise Did the serpent come to tempt your taste? Have you seen the devil? Did you fall from grace? Have you taken a bite of the apple? Did you drink up all the wine? Did you see something so frightening That it sent shivers down your spine? Did you see a long lost lover only to look again into his eyes? Or maybe you saw a homeless mother And then heard her child cry? Did you see someone or something which ended up shaking your faith? Did you see a straight road ahead And yet didn't walk so straight? Maybe, baby you watched a man fall down in the middle of the street Did you build yourself a fire? Only to find that you couldn't stand the heat She turned around to face me As she broke down in tears Saying she never meant to hurt me But her biggest fears... Rang loud, sad and true Now she knew that she couldn't undo All that she had made Feeling like she was trapped in a maze Locked in a cage hurting so much and at such a young age I have never been a hunter myself What I catch is always free to run away But sometimes I wish that I was different For if I was then she might have stayed Maybe I should have been quiet And not such a seeker of the truth But she would have told me sooner or later So just what would have been the use?

(2) EMPTY EYES It's not that I'd rather be alone Then be at your side But the strongest feelings I have for you Are the ones that I hide My empty eyes You could never look inside My empty eyes Part of this face that you despise It seems that the nature of women Is that emotion rules all The reason they rise The reason they fall There's no way of knowing Which way you'll be going my dear It could be anywhere? That once burning candle Has ceased glowing Revealing my fears Your rightful place is Out there somewhere.... But it isn't here That once bright star Outside my window Has long since disappeared Proof... You can't prove your love when you don't speak the truth Broken... No more I love you's spoken Crying... Is what she's been doing since she found out I was lying Leaving... Is what she is doing now that there's no more deceiving (3) ON THE ROCKS (for female vocalist) When he calls you up You drop everything As time itself stops When the telephone rings He inspires the love song You're whole body sings The moment that he talks Your heart begins to soar For he gives you wings But somewhere it all went wrong Along with so many other things Now you're cold as ice and on the rocks Told yourself you don't care anymore Doesn't matter how many presents he brings Heart wrenching pain is now your companion, your refrain Your rock of Gibraltar, your new ball and chain Feel like a jilted bride left all alone in the rain As all your ideals have just been flushed down the drain When what you found at the altar was just a crutch and a cane Yet ever since you let him go You've longed to return To the face, the arms, you used to know Guess that's just how this story goes Now you want him back But what's inside you won't let it show Yes, ever since you let him leave One single memory burns One that changed your previous beliefs You dry your eyes and hide your grief You realize the tables turned Your heart's been stolen and he's the thief Heart wrenching pain is now your companion, your refrain Your rock of Gibraltar, your new ball and chain Feel like a jilted bride left all alone in the rain As all your ideals you've just flushed down the drain When what you found at the altar was just a crutch and a cane (4) SMITTY'S ANTHEM (NO TEARS) I've got no tears left to cry It just feels dead inside And no, I'm not gonna lie I love to hate you more Than I ever loved to love you And it may be Yeah, that this one's on me But as you see by my misery It's all I can do To not scream through the roof There's a red flag at half mast You whistle as you walk past Yes, the graveyard is full of souls Whose decaying remains fill all those holes While the blind man with the thirsty ears Longs for love during his final years And the middle-aged man with a broken past Cling to lies remembering them as facts And the bullet proof youth takes advice from none Learns the hard way that's when the troubles come… As he looks around not sure what to do He blames me and I blame you… Yeah, I was driving Fucking flying! Running away as fast as I can She was lying Then starts crying I tell her, "Go find another man!" Lonely… Not me… I'm already making other plans You try to hold on But baby I'm gone Now you know I'm still in demand This is a new song I hear you humming along Got you thinking about clapping your hands… Since you've grown tired Of living uninspired Finally my friend you understand… (5) VICTIM OF FATE I watched the smoke rising Up from the flames Love is dead in my eyes But I'm not to blame A victim of fate… Call it what you will… It was a hard thing to swallow… But she had to take the pill I stopped caring and cut my ties Lost the fire within my eyes I've grown tired…dissatisfied Now exposed…what I used to hide… I got people dropping like flies Disappearing out of my life By now I stopped asking questions Because I know the reasons why I stopped caring and cut my ties Lost the fire within my eyes I've grown tired…dissatisfied Now exposed…what I used to hide… I got people acting like fleas Latching, attaching on to me It's probably because they're weak They're playing games like hide and seek Sadly, no one comes to find them Negativity defines them Those who used to stand behind them Have moved on…gone on with their lives I watched the smoke rising Up from the flames Love is dead in my eyes But I'm not to blame A victim of fate… Call it what you will… It was a hard thing to swallow… but she had to take the pill! (6) DORA Nicknamed Dora the explorer For being such a horror You showed me a good time Then made me lose my mind, yeah If this squirrel had a nut He'd store it in your butt Don't you turn your back to me Before I've gained your trust Once they kick your dick in the dirt All the money in the world Won't buy back your self-worth Or take away the hurt You can try to hide the fact That your whole soul got jacked But there's no use trying to catch What has slipped right through the cracks No more fight left in the dog No more corn left on the cob Looks like the thief has just been robbed And he knows the cops in on the job Seems you don't know… What you've been missing Until what was working… Suddenly isn't Try changing your mind While you're serving time In a solitary prison Not bound by chains Though what remains Seems utterly insufficient Alone at sea Drifting hopelessly Yeah, and you call it fishing… Save that worried mind Not for what you're afraid to find… But rather on what you've been missing Take some advice from me To help yourself break free From this invisible prison Just to catch a break You'll just have to take Something when it isn't given Embracing heartache Was your greatest mistake That you keep on reliving In this game you're playing And not participating That don't lead to winning!

(7) GET OUTTA MY HOUSE They say diamonds are a girl's best friend I guess it's good to have something left when When the feeling ends When the love is gone All that's left is a song You make love to your bong As quiet as a mouse when your loving wife says "Get outta my house!" After mistakes have been made Just as the song said She threw a vase Smacked you in the face And when you said ouch She made you sleep on the couch You never saw the writing on the wall Kept telling yourself tomorrow she'd call From days to months to years From happiness to sadness to tears Your lasting memories concern her tight blouse And the night she said "Get outta my house!" The carriage of gold which you both rode Down along the cove on your wedding day Somehow became untracked and unhitched And every one of them horses they got up and ran away After every mistake followed another excuse As the chain started to break She figured what's the use For when you called for a truce She challenged you to a joust On her shield she soon wrote in your blood "Get outta my house!" Hearts once ablaze and set afire Have gradually lost their flame Dreams once you both together aspired No longer remain the same Coals in need of stoking have lost all chance of smoking Leaving each night's watchmen pointing blame The mood grows colder as the time grows older It's time to move south When you're bleeding from the mouth Because she sprayed you in the nose And then smacked you with the hose Even Smoky the Bear Knew that the fire's been doused On the night she said "Get outta my house!" They say diamonds are a girl's best friend I guess it's good to have something left when When the feeling ends When the love is gone All that's left is a song You make love to your bong As quiet as a mouse When your loving wife says "Get the fu#$ outta my house!" "Get the fu#$ outta my house!" (8) VALENTINE WOES I got those Valentine Woes I know that some of you know What it's like to be me When you're feeling alone A bit weak in the knees And a bit faint of heart In a world full of lovers You feel distant and apart Something separates you From everybody else Sure you bought some chocolates Yet you kept them for yourself You even bought some roses But they wilted on your way home Ever since the day they were cut You know they never would have grown I got those Valentine Woes Since the day is coming soon While everybody's getting flowers Seems that yours will never bloom (9) THIS VERY ROOM These simple pleasures Shall forever dull my pain For even though he may be gone Still my memories of him remain Even though I am here with you We both know we're not alone He's in my head, right here, right now As if he was standing in this very room (He says:) Has she ever called out my name When you two were lying in bed? Did she ever scream out in pain I can't get him out of my head! Has she ever said that I was to blame Yes, I'm sure that's what she said Did she ever to you complain That she'd be better off dead? I'm sure that she did So hard to keep these feelings hid I'm sure that she did It's such a tough thing to be living with I try not to think of him For there's so much to think about Too many truths that I've discovered Though to this day still I have my doubts He led me by the collar Then tied me to a string And left me hitched to this post After promising me everything Even though I am here with you We both know we're not alone He's in my head, right here, right now The same as if he was standing in this very room And he won't be leaving anytime soon (10) SMILES AND FROWNS With every grimace and frown From both the past and present My life feels turned upside down And I begin to regret it With every grimace and frown That I dig up from the past It adds a thorn to my crown And a cloud to my sky that now looks overcast With every grimace and frown Comes make-up and paint for my soul Creating a sad mime from this clown Whose feelings become beyond his control…. With every new smile On each face I see I slowly forget what we had And what we used to be With every new smile on each passing face I find my sadness being lifted My pain being erased With every new smile that I help to create I feel a little better about myself And my life's story I now narrate With every new smile That comes along my way I'll have a better chance Of smiling again someday

(11) UNDERRATED Everything has changed and yet nothing Has changed since we last spoke For what I once yearned the candle has burned Now there's nothing left but smoke Pages I have written in secret inscription Been set afire see their ashes blow So simply stated nothing's worse than saying Well I guess I almost made it Reality has conquered me So I've left this dream behind My fate, my destiny Awaits in another place and time So simply stated These years bled away Cannot be turnicated Reality has conquered me I've left this dream behind My fate, my destiny Awaits in another place and time Now the clock's hands keep spinning And I've wasted so much time Find myself a victim to all I've created Feeling so jaded I can't relax or unwind I've failed myself now I'm really in a bind For what I once yearned The candle has burned Now there's nothing left but smoke Pages I have written in secret inscription Light this fire see their ashes blow So simply stated nothing's worse than saying Well I guess I almost made it I've been led astray But perhaps it's better this way Maybe it's better to be blind Than the one who can see His path illuminated Who walked the road yet never made it So if anyone asks me I'd have to agree That giving up is underrated Ooh... it's underrated (12) CLINICAL DEPRESSION Narrator: She finds a bottle of pills And she holds them in her hand Daughter: My whole world is falling down And no one understands There's only one way to solve my problems That's for me to go away After I'm placed in my grave I won't hear anyone say... Parents: She had the whole world in her hand But she let all of us down Now she's gone to a faraway place Though she's only six feet underground Parents: What on earth would make her think That we didn't love her so? What pushed her past the brink To where there was no place left to go? Daughter: Mom and dad I never meant to hurt you Nor cause you any pain I guess that I imagined My loss would be your gain Parents: Whatever happened in the past Is nothing compared to this That would pass just like the moon With just a hug and kiss Parents: This is your one mistake That'll never be undone We used to have two children Now we're left with only one Everybody stumbles When they learn to walk Everybody mumbles When they learn to talk Parents: What we've learned with age Is that you give it your best shot We prayed that you'd be strong But you never even fought Did you ever listen To anything we'd taught? When swimming against the tide You give it everything you've got Daughter: With expectations oh so high You nailed me to the wall You placed me on a pedestal So I was bound to fall I ended up lying down When I tried to stand too tall And when I needed you the most I was too afraid to call Parents: How could we have missed the truth With the writing on the wall? Why did you say nothing When we should have known it all? If only you had told us For we can be so blind If only had we known We would have been more kind Daughter: Oh no, what have I done? This shouldn't be my fate… I realize I've made only one mistake But now it's far too late Parents: Always remember that You're daddy's little girl The world would have been Your oyster and you its pearl Parents: I would do anything To give you a second chance I would trade my soul eternally Paying with a pound of flesh in advance Parents: Not only were you my daughter you were my best friend If only you had known That it didn't have to end Daughter: Goodbye mama… Goodbye papa… May we meet again