BINDER - RATED (R, X, NC-17) - PAGE 1 OF 1

Massive binder labeled (loose-leaf cover note) "Poems by Subject, Big Binder, $15.99". Tabbed sections visible include: MISC, LIFE PHILOSOPHY, FIGHTING LIFE, HUMOROUS, LOVE, LOVE LOST, LOST INNOSCENCE [sic], BIG GIANT ANTS, DEATH & SUFFERING, GOD IS DEAD, POLITICS / FUCK BUSH, NOT SOBER, LEARNING. Sample poems transcribed: MORAL MESSAGES section - "ODE TO JASON (A FALLEN HERO)": 'This is a story about a boy whose dog ran away / Who, during a snowstorm, went out to play / Jason set out to find a loved one - no matter what the cost / But as the dog came home the little boy became lost / When you're a fourth grader finding a dog is no easy task / Should you risk your life for a pet? It depends on whom you ask / The fact that Jason said yes should come as no surprise / He loved that dog to pieces so he set out through the snow / Little Jason was a hero so he set out through the snow / So it saddens my heart deeply to tell his tale of woe / What a brave little soul, right up until the end / What a bit of inspiration is what he left behind / He listened to his heart, paid no attention to his mind / And right before he left our world with the situation oh so grim / The last thought that filled his head - his dog would do the same for him / The saddest of it all and the reason why we cried / If not for the heart of an angel he never would have died / When you think of him in memory try to wipe away your tears / And remember him for what he was which is wise beyond his years'; "FOLLOWING THE BLIND": 'Such a waste of time... Following the blind... Open up your eyes... Haven't you realized? / 'Tis better to lead them... And still be breathing... Than it is to follow... And be the one left bleeding // Never wading in the springs of freedom... And not understanding these things I speak of... Contemplating something hollow and misleading // And it brings many things... Such as a false disguise by a gypsy king... In his lies we discover many truths... Through his eyes we uncover his abuse... And his song of sorrow so many sing // For only a fool would break the sole rule... Of the creator of thought / The earth shaker / The maker of everything / And all that there is to believe in or be bought / Is there really a tomorrow?' HUMOROUS section: "GILLIGAN SMILES" - 'I give....They take / They live....I die trying to save a drowning doggy from the lake / I give...And they take some more / Both me and the doggy never paddle back to shore / Yeah the boat floats / But I ain't on it / It's not named the minnow it's the escargot / And no, I don't want it / Yeah, Gilligan's got it / But it's Mrs. Howell who flaunts it / It's Ginger who gives it / But it's Marianne who really wants it / Gilligan has just got to be a little more responsive'; "CAN'T DANCE IN THESE PANTS" - 'I said, "Hunny, I'd love to...but I can't" / I can't dance in these pants, they're too big - I need a belt / But nobody'll give me one / 'Cause the last time they did - I tried to hang myself'; "THE CHROMOSOME KID" - 'The neighborhood bullies called him the chromosome kid / He used to bag groceries at Stop and Shop / But the managers didn't quite like his style / So now he's collecting carts out in the parking lot / He never had a chance to cut the cards / And they stacked the deck / Now he's left standing in the rain / What else would you expect?'; "THE DOCTOR'S CURE" - 'She used to be sick / But now I think she is well / But with all the lights off / It's really hard to tell / Her pulse was racing / And heavy she was breathing / Because the pillow she was facing'. LIFE PHILOSOPHY section: "ANOTHER HISTORY LESSON" (references 'no more playing follow the leader', 'history is cyclical and I'm a big reader'), "THE PARADIGM (JUST AS)" (references design/mold mankind, mastermind). FIGHTING LIFE section: "ANOTHER MONTH AWAY", "CALL IT FATE" (references cancer, hospital, dying wife, 'you can call it fate...you can call it a shame'), a third untitled poem about a hospital birth/death juxtaposition ('In the next room of the hospital is a mother's joy / The prize of a life - a baby boy / Parents counted the fingers and counted the toes... So no one knows why he grew to kill... You can look at their deaths and who they blame'). DRUGS tab: "ALCOHOL" - personifying alcohol as an abusive on-again off-again partner ('I am a victim, though I feel like a hero / You make me feel like number one yet I'm a zero... Still I come back to you... I'm the one who pays the price... Why won't you let me be?'). Other poems glimpsed throughout binder: "DREAM LAND", "BECAUSE YOU'RE MY BABY", "BIGGEST SURPRISE", "KICKING THE CAN" ('This woman I'd been dating for nearly a year... Said her chains had been broken and she's no longer bound / To me, former lover, getting outta town'), "MUST HAVE SEEN HIM FIRST", "TEN FEET TALL", "AT LEAST ONE A DAY" (religious, 'I've found someone to believe in... finally saw Jesus in a living, breathing and walking hymn'), a handwritten red-ink note reading "GOD IS ALIVE :)", "CHOOSING YOUR RELIGION" / "A STRANGER IN THE MANGER" (religious satire referencing baptism and sin), "FEED THE BIRDS" ('I always feed the birds but sometimes I shoot at the people... We believe in some kind of higher power but we never worship at the steeple... there's more than just one great book, oh yeah, and its sequel'), an untitled poem under LOST INNOSCENCE/DEATH & SUFFERING tabs beginning 'A life based on the movies / Another nine o'clock special / Not suitable for children / Maybe violent, deadly and racial - NOT SUITABLE FOR CHILDREN', "NO SUCH LUCK" under the POLITICS/FUCK BUSH tab ('When you feel like you can't trust the government / Then whom can you trust? / Since you've all ready given up on love / And now you settle for lust'), "BEEN THERE BEFORE" (bear/cave metaphor about anger and territory), "SINK OR SWIM" ('I guess you shouldn't try to be a shepherd / When all your sheep jump off the cliff / But you can't see inside my conscience / And all the pain I'm living with'). CONTENT FLAG: this binder contains explicit profanity in a tab label ("FUCK BUSH"), political content, and a poem referencing racial content alongside violence ("maybe violent, deadly and racial - not suitable for children") - flagged for review before any public posting.