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Weaponized envy surrounds me
It's everywhere I can't break free
Negative energy, now grounds me
As I'm watching the world so jealously
My High anxiety {struck: over} {struck: intimacy} stresses me
while a {struck: my} fear of intimacy threatens me
Averse to pain I constantly retreat
Living {struck: as} a zombie {struck: state} {struck: a} half a sleep
like

Try to live your
{struck: Make my} life as if Love was tangible
{struck: Somehow} {struck: To}hat 'll make your day {struck: a} much more manageable
Especially when times are tough {struck: and} hard to handle
{struck: an} When Passionate burns {struck: the} flame {struck: the} Let Love become {struck: the} the candle

Inner
Beauty
is art
for the soul

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TITLE : I.B.P.Y.C.
PAPER : loose sheet
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I.B.P.Y.C.

A broken mirror lies shattered on the floor / Beautiful patterns of distorted reflections / Once pure now blemished. So is life.

Fallen clouds
Hanging clouds drift above after the battle in the sky
Fallen soldiers through love and war - each one picking sides
Feel the sun's warmth penetrate
Pray for second chances far too late
Falling raindrops through the sky
Tears onced weeped soon turn dry
There's heaven and there's hell - both remain unseen
You live and then you die - there's nothing in between

That I traded my gun for a camera / The deer I watched drinking from a stream / I shot him right between the eyes / Now he lives forever, does not die today

I write for men like me who roar like lions / And fight to the death to defend their pride

a day before
I got a postcard from you yesterday
Sorry for your silence was all that said
You needed peace of mind some time for you head
No greetings, no endings; just the words I just read
uttely
You seemed to felt helpless and [?] alone
so distant as I picked up the phone
And I fell asleep to beeping
Also you [?] were not home.
I got a letter from you today...
seems you were feeling better

Unfoldable ... is what your memory has become to me
Traceable ... its so easy to see how things came to be
that we were to become one
[?] through fate and destiny
Unavoidable...

Strings break / Voices crack / Smooth skin wrinkles / it just a matter of fact / Just do the math

Oh the pain
Oh the humanity
When a man
Loses his sanity
Especially when that man is me
And I'm lacking a family
One that could potentially
Say the right things
{struck: One that could} That would be incentive for me
To do the right things
But I guess that's why I'm here in
the {struck: for first place}
Less we forget that I fell {struck: down}
flat on my face in the first race
Back when I {struck: felt} carried the weight
of the world on my back
Yeah I {struck: truly} really thought I could
{struck: save the world} - huh, imagine that?

Rise up, Rise up
And follow me
For I've been sent to help defend
This {struck} precious democracy
From all you corporate kids
Who've thusfar failed to see
There's is more than just negative energy
Coming from your cries of Me Me Me
Surely it's no surprise {struck}
that we'll see {struck} worse than hurt {struck} pride
If we just let things be
{struck: Since we're} in those of us in the know
Will get swallowed whole
By the status Quo if we don't go
And tell everyone we know
That there's something better
waiting down the road...
Just what... I can't wait to
see...

I just melted in your eyes
discovered {struck: found} something pure
From the disease of lies
you have become my cure
With you I'm ten feet tall
And the world seems so small
Yet I'm up so high
Who will catch me when I fall?
It should be you
Since you put me here
But never before
have I seen so clear
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discovered (to the left of line 2)
6 (to the right of line 2)

Now I pray to take away letters from your mailbox and your name! / Sometimes without warning comes the hurting / From laughing too much inside

I'm a singer songwriter / I'm a lover not a fighter / I'm a poet, a word dancer

For a heart without love is a glove without a hand / Or a tongue that won't taste these chocolates I bring

I turn frowns upside down and make unhappy
people Smile
Life gotcha down If I'm around I'll sit and talk
with you {struck: for} {struck: a} awhile
Then I'll share with you what I do

I see your face
it looks to me
you need some cheering up

Eyebrows are raised
Hair out of place
your eyes are tearing up

You've lost your faith
In yourself hey...
You better listen up

Sometimes it seems
They crush your dreams
And THEN that's when life gets tough...
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4
4
6

What color are your insides?
That's all that matters
What we can see outside
Are just 5 shades and 5 spatters
[crossed out line beginning with "The clothes of an actor"]
A non-mitigated factor
From mighty bright white
To midnight black [crossed out: "or something darker"] blacker
just a tiny fraction of the whole

Something that which is beyond our control

Gives no insight to the depths of the soul

Might show where we're from but not where we're gonna go.

Someday [?] if you ever listen to our song
I have gone
It's like I never left you...
But if you wallow in pity & misery
With every thought you think of me
Just know I'm sorry to have upset you

There's only one way to [?]
Stop loving you...
And that's for me to say goodbye
I've been asking around and
[?] it seems to be true...
Never seen so many
[?] hearts
or men who have cried

And I thought...
I was gonna be different
So I fought...
And lost [?] in
Love's war

I'm a Rhode's Scholar
of the soul
Got a PhD in Rock n'
Roll
Everyone {struck: that reads}
{struck: seems to agree}
(at least secretly)
that I {struck: am the man}
Put the "man"
in human ity,
So... Yeah...
it {struck: it} feels good to
be me
I admit that
surely and freely
That there's a few
who'd like to be me
{struck: }Mostly those who
find beauty
in the quietness
of the soul
{struck: Benca} For it's in the
forrest and the trees
where one can go
and still find
peace - that's where
those in the know
know where I'll be.

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I'm a Rhode's Scholar
of the soul
Got a PhD in Rock n'
Roll
Everyone {struck: that reads}
Seems to agree
(At least secretly)
that I {struck: am the man}
Put the "man"
in human ity, !
So... Yeah...
it {struck: } feels good to
be me
I admit that
surely and freely

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that there's a few
who'd like to be me
Mostly those who
find beauty
in the quietness
of the soul
{struck: Benca} for it's in the
forrest and the trees
where one can go
and still find
peace - that's where
those in the know
know where i'll be

Not everyone can eat without something dying
If we all spoke the truth there'd be no word for lying

I painted my room sanitarium white
So it would feel like
I never left home
When I answered their questions all nice and
They said I was all right
so now they leave me alone
Sometimes you gotta run through the
{struck: just} to get outta the game
Some times its best to shut up
And know when not to explain
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polite
maze

Not everyone's presence is a gift
Though still we've got to learn to live with it
Waiting for one - num{struck: ero}uno on the christmas list
Six billion six-hundred and sixty-six hypocrites
Waiting for one - yet bowing to none
It's not the cross - that's my biggest loss
The ladder to the sky - I've climbed every rung
A river so wide -
Put down our fists - somehow coexist
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to unite

I've got a brand new method to my madness
And very {struck: very.} simply stated $\rightarrow$ This life I lead I hate it
I've decided my life's too complicated
So much to do and yet there's so little time
clock's hands keep spinning can't relax or unwind
Each thought and deed {struck: must be} {superscript: seems so} premeditated
Seconds bled away cannot be turnicated

A(11) I've got a brand new method to my madness
B (7) And very simply stated
B (7) This life I lead I hate it
B (11) Like all the rest I'm encapsulated
C (11) I failed myself now I'm really in a bind
C (11) And still yet I've convinced myself I'm {superscript: AM} fine
B (11) my Destiny won't manifest and I've waited
B (11) {struck: 20000} being the best is over rated
{superscript: Hopefully?}
A 11 I've got a brand new method to my madness
B 7 And very simply stated
B 7 This life I lead I hate it
B 11 My life's an open book though few have read it
C 11 Though my cover is quite plain my text is rich
C 11 Be it fact or fiction {superscript: who knows} {struck: 20000} which is which
{struck: BFP} {struck: I find truth in lies when I'm intoxicated}
B 11 Fak{struck: e} happiness through{superscript: my} tears {struck: o} {superscript: so} I appear elated
B 11 I can find truth in lies while I'm intoxicated
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Jaded - cynical
by exp'n

I don't need to be treated like I'm a super star / I just need to feel needed / And Honey there you are

Sure I still sing for you / But lacking passion / lacking fire / But now I close them when I get tired

I VISITED A PLACE / THAT USED TO BE A FOREST / A LITTLE GIRL MADE A PUZZLED FACE /// As each one falls up goes my wealth / And that land belonged to her father

When you forget than I forget
When you remember I turn my head
Away in [?] shame as I gaze up
Candle light flickers - ...
As my eyes tear up

Sitting here and holding you
Learning life's lessons - a new point of view
Yet I'm alone or so it seems
Inside your mind [?] you see
All these unlived dreams

It's not me who you want to be
You wish to run free - like a little kid
I'm a mother - same as the Earth
Whose [?] second greatest joy was giving birth
To a baby boy who'll I'll always put first

You could have been second
Had you given me just a little more time
I impatience again is what wrecked it
And yet just like I expected to find
Sabotage
It was just another case of
Sabotage by design

We are the New Rome / The legions are cheering killing /// Oh... this is what we call Entertainment... when in ages past there'd be mass crying

I've learned some paper cuts never heal / People who could be whatever they want / Yet lack the conviction to choose

9 {struck: 4} No, I don't have a flash{struck: new} car
9 {struck: 8} I could only dream of looking like
4 A movie star
9 {struck: 8} Never {struck: needed} a {struck: secret} dog mansion on the hill
9 {struck: 8} It's in that different way {struck: that} they say
4 My looks could kill
9 Climbed to the top of the ugly tree
9 I hit every branch when I fell down
4 Sucks to be me
9 All of the children throw rocks at me
9 Even bus them in from other towns
4 'Cause I'm Fugly
9 ( I AM F-U-G-L-Y fugly)
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ugly
Fat {struck: without} the p
Stupid
Lazy

I'm loading up the wagon full of {struck: TREASURES} I
have gathered
And I'm letting all my friends know that I don't
know where they can find me
But one thing I am sure of is that I left
the present behind me...
The future {struck: holds} the secret to discovering
the answer
To whether it {struck: is} better...
{struck: Are you a puppet or just a dancer?}
to be a puppet with no strings
Or what we call 'round here a dancer

whatever she did...
It ain't my kid

Sassafrass cures cifilus
I grabbed her ass and thought, "I could get used
But soon I got a rash
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to this"

Her vagina was warm and moist like mashed potatoes
Her tits hung there like two ripe juicy ripe tomatoes
Her legs were long and lean
Her thighs were milky white like vanilla icecream
Her nipples were perky and hard like lima beans
She had the sweetest candy ass that I've ever seen

Well we're living here in Elayna town
And the cops are always coming around
Down at the point they're packing it up
Making the call and watch for the cops
The phone never stops
But the was handed down
And its been happening everyday

It's not where you end up but how far you had to go to get there / If you were born with a Senate seat don't you ever complain that life's not fair

I wake up remove the covers from my {struck: bed}
3 8
Then I do what I can for the human race,
3 8
Fight the urge, to give in when I'm overwhelmed
3 8
Save the world, {struck: But} First I gotta {struck: save} work on myself
3 8
{struck: But I'm} I am close to becoming the man that I was
6 born to be
8
Another drone - {struck: another} paid wage slave
Worked to death - dead at a young age
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face, work on

Yes, I'm the best / A living legend / Within my own mind /// Okay I suck / let the truth be heard / I can no longer kid myself

Once I had... / All I thought I'd need / But now I got nothing but memories

I AM TO GOD / WHAT THE BEATLES WERE TO JESUS / INDEPENDENT THOUGHT / IS THE ONLY THING THAT FREES US /// PEASANTS ARE TO POWER / JUST LIKE WEEDS TO A FLOWER / AND BRUTUS WAS TO CAESAR

Almost slippery, it's so surreal
{struck: The way I think}
The way I float
the way I feel
Almost too good it should be destroyed
But then that would
Leave a lot of people
Unemployed
The Sun God Ra
Is overpaid
Shades i've been pulled down
last (sixteen) days