HANDWRITTEN SHEET - RATED (R, X, NC-17) - PAGE 2 OF 4

I just lost another dealer
I coulda stopped after I copped
a cheap feel
and all would have been forgiven
But of course - I mounted the horse -
which means I didn't
So thus I {struck: for} ve just been questioned
Almost damn near arrested

Kristi Nelson
I'm not rich but I can be
{struck: sure I'm} brilliant when
I'm lyrical
But I'm {struck: just} {struck: a real} {struck: coffee and} bitch
{struck: before my} cereal
But I'm such a bitch
I pour {struck: the} coffee on
my {struck: cold} cereal
MARGIN:
Not looking for purity

{struck: I} Like to smoke alot of weed
And listen to a little Lou Reed
That's really all I need

Did anyone get the number of that train
The one that knocked me {struck: flat} {struck: back} on My back?
I found myself walking on the rail again
Found myself walking on the track
The way was dark and my foot was caugh
I heard the conductor blow his whistle
My hands grew numb as my eyes grew wide
The train hit me like a fucking missile
Twenty five feet in the air
I looked down and my legs weren't there
No i'll never use public transportation
Since I required hospitalization
But justice was served {struck: [?]} Along
With law and order
After my lawsuit
They had to raise the fare
A Buck and a quarter

His mama was a nurse and daddy sold jewels
A couple hard working stiffs but both were fools
If they got outta line they'd keep their cool
Inmates running the asylum making
Never make a fuss leave 'em to the School

Too busy working to have to raise kids
Right there ya find where the problem is
When little boy breaks the rules daddy's too
drunk to yell
He tried to chase 'em down the stairs
but down he fell

When you make your own rules how hard can
it be?
Mom's lying on the couch while watching TV
It takes more to be a mom than
just making dinner
That is of course if you want your boy
to play the game of life and be a winner
His daddy read beer bottles while my daddy
read me books

When life gets ugly you can't get by on looks
Me and my daddy played catch throw and
Him and his daddy played throw and
duck
When you got no smarts
You depend on luck
And when that runs out
It really sucks

All you need's a dick to be a father
It takes balls to be a dad
I wish he read this story
I really wish he had

In all my rhymes and all my verses / Sweet words of love have been changed to curses

My friends ask me just what it is that I'd
like to do best
Simply to touch the cressant moon that
shines above the rest
I've thought about it often but the courage
I could'nt find
I've been doin' all I can to try to make
that sweet girl mine
She's the type you heard about ; likes to open
her own door
Independance makes you lonely you find that
everyones a bore
I care for her so much infact sometimes its
hard to see
My heart can only be at peace when she
cares this much for me
If she never does I'll have no choice but
to pack everything and run
And go hide out on a crowded beach
in the hot Floridian sun

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My friends ask me just what it is that I'd
like to do best
Simply to touch the cressant moon that
shines above the rest
I've thought about it often but the courage
I couldn't find
I've been doin' all I can to try to make
that sweet girl mine
She's the type you heard about; likes to open
her own door
Independance makes you lonely you find that
everyones a bore
I care for her so much infact sometimes its
hard to see
My heart can only be at peace when she
cares this much for me
If she never does I'll have no choice but
to pack everything and run
And go hide out on a crowded beach
in the hot Floridian sun

I'M A little Gold fish I CAN see all around,
why didn't they throw me back I weigh less
than a pound.
You know I've seen you naked and play
with yourself, too!
But don't think for a moment, that any
old tuna will do.
Oh yeah, I need a fishy girlfriend
to take me to the zoo,
I used to have one long ago but I
lost her to the flu.

She told me to stop but you see she does it too
That's when I asked why should I listen to you?
Sometimes you think you're right but they all know that you're wrong
If something ain't done some then it keeps going on
Time to change the curtains time to pull down the shade
Life is so uncertain no one ever has it made
We make love in the dark
We light our own spark
When I on the mark
I hit it outta the park

[Leftmost small piece]
Trivial Pursuit
We've lost power
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
A woman cried out it is the skyline it's so pretty
She says I've been walking around sitting like a ghost
I heard a man any the gin mill he closed
And he said just kept walking and this place to go
As I sat on the sidewalk this little kid came
So Angry at the world 'cause he couldn't play game
We've lost power
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
I heard a young thing swearing cause he could listen
It seems nothing happened when he turned on P. Diddy
An elderly woman complained that she couldn't get
the weather
I told her if it's hot then sleep in the nude
And if you get cold then put on a sweater
She must have thought I was either sick or rude
I gave her good advice but I wish it were...

[Middle top piece]
We've lost power here in New York City
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
A kid my age stopped and asked me
"what's going on?"
He asked me if I get stoned as he pulled out
his bong
I told him No, Not any more
He said he needed wraps but he couldn't
go to the store
He said he was smoking cause there was
nothing to do
As I rested my arm on the post I
said as [? illegible] and said
Oh what a pity
When he saw my flash light he asked
me what I was doing
I answered, him I was writing a [?]

[Bottom piece]
Shitty pity
We've lost power here in New York City
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
There was a sad old vet I met and I asked him
"what's troubling you?"
He said there's no money in the hitty sense
answered
A young girl passed by and I asked her where
she's from, but she was making a cell
a call
I overheard that she needed her mails done
and she was so disappointed she couldn't go to
the mall
We've lost power here in New York City
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
A drunk stumbled over saying he was going
going for a black out during a black out
Then he began to boast how he was so witty
Soon a homeless man came to ask me for a
cigarette
Saying he had proof this was all a plot
by the government
I said as a joke that maybe Bush was
trying to save oil
When he lit up a smoke I saw his pants
were soiled

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Trivial Pursuit

We've lost power
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
a woman cried out I [?] is the skyline - it's so pretty
She says I've been walking around feeling like a ghost
I heard a man say the gin mill [crossed out: down the road] is closed
And He [crossed out: said] just kept walking with no place to go
As I SAT on the sidewalk this little kid came
So Angry at the world 'cause he couldn't play video games

We've lost power
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
I heard a young thug swearing 'cause he could listen to P. Diddy
It seems nothing happened when he turned on his radio
An elderly woman complained that she couldn't get the weather
I told her if it's hot then sleep in the nude
And If youget cold then put on a sweater
She must have thought I was either sick or rude
I gave her good advice but I wish I never met her

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shitty
witty pity

We've lost power here in New York City
People say it's pitch black along the whole east coast
There was a sad old vet I met and I asked him
"What's troubling you?"
He answered there's no money in the hitty sincet
they closed the VFW
A young girl passed by and I asked here where [?]
she's from, but she was making a call
I overheard that she needed her nails done
and she was so disappointed she couldn't go to
the mall

We've lost power here in New York city
People say it's pitch black along the whole east coast
A drunk stumbled over saying he was
going for a black out during a black out
Then he began to boast how he was so witty
Soon a homeless man came to ask me for a
cigarette
Saying he had proof this was all a plot
by the government
I said as a joke that maybe Bush was
trying to save oil
When he lit up a smoke I saw his pants
were soiled

---

We've lost power here in New York City
People say it's pitch black along the whole East Coast
A kid my age stopped and asked me
what's going on?
He asked me if I get stoned as he pulled out
his bong
I told him NO, not any more
He said he needed wraps but he couldn't
go to the store
He said he was smoking cause there was
nothing to do
As I rested my arm on the post I
doodled at [?] said
Oh what a pity
When he saw my flash light he asked
me what I was doing?
I answered him that I was writing a song

4
1
5

Mr. policeman
tarot card
white van
single shot highpowered
13 yr old boy school
terrorizing taunting police
identical crimes
deliberate, controlled
cool, cautious.

SNIPER
Who am I?
And what are my reasons?
I've got my rifle by my side
And it's hunting season

Just another face in the crowd
Waiting to make my next move
Eight A.M. and already out on the prowl
I wonder how long I can keep my cool?

Random is the way it has to be
Can't have any motive or connection following after me
one bullet at a time
one by one I release my rage
I am God, I am death, I am your old age

Random
Seclusion
I am reality
This is no illusion

kill for sport
chased shadows
less anger
thrill
signature
killing
so about your business
I will find you
Look over your left shoulder
I am right behind you

but you will
not seem
seclusion
I am in
reality
I could be your neighbor
I could be your best friend
But only when you catch me
Will you be safe again

ROCKVILLE -- With a seventh killing now linked to the sniper attacks that are unnerving the region, Montgomery Police Chief Charles A. Moose faces questions about whether the investigation should be taken over by the FBI. Ballistics evidence has tied the slaying of Dean Harold Meyers at a Manassas, Va., service station on Wednesday night to the sniper who has killed seven and seriously injured two in Maryland, Virginia and Washington, D.C. Because the killer has expanded into a fifth jurisdiction, some are asking whether the FBI, with its extensive experience in hunting serial murderers, should take the lead in the investigation. "All things are possible," Moose said at a noon briefing at police headquarters in Rockville on Thursday. "It really doesn't matter who runs the investigation." But minutes later, in an interview -- eight minutes, no more, he said -- in his office, Moose told The Gazette that the question implied that his police officers do not have the skills to handle the investigation. "That is an insult," he said, shortly after turning off the television in his pin-neat office. "You hear that question and you get defensive." But he, mused, if police do not crack the case soon, it may be smarter for county police to cede leadership to the FBI. "I do have 890,000 residents who need police service," Moose said. "At what point does the distraction become such that police services tend to deteriorate? "It may not be appropriate then to be police chief and obsess over this case." On Tuesday, federal and state officials -- led by U.S. Attorney General John D. Ashcroft -- pledged to help Montgomery County following a formal request from Moose, who is heading the regional task force searching for the killer. State and federal agents have been helping since Oct. 3. Asked about a report in Wednesday's Washington Post that quoted unidentified officers within the task force as saying that work is being duplicated and time wasted on briefings, Moose replied, "Wherever you work, being too close, it's going to be crowded. Is there going to be confusion? Sure." The agencies that came in probably thought the investigation would be over in two days, he said. Finding more space to accommodate the task force is one plan the county is working on to ease the crowding.

some may call me crazy
But i don't see it that way
I AM just another hunter
And you are all my prey

I am now adding to the legacy
That is still ahead of me
But Some day it shall be left behind
As stories change and bend
Each time a tale is told
Yet what is carved in stone
Shall not warp in shape nor form
Even as time grows old
Will still [?] weather [?] any storm
BRICK Never freezes or cracks no matter how cold
Granite does not melt by [?] when the weather gets warm
It only acts as a strong foundation
For what is to be an unbreakable mold
One's cellar of thought is his one day meditation
Where the only real chance to be at peace
simply another desperate situation
In Searching for something which is so out of reach
Both life and death are [?] always chained together
As Beginnings and endings will never cease
No man lives forever
The present is now
But it has passed
When it's your time to go
Will you leave anything that lasts?
This quest for immortality
Is the one thing I hold dear to me
In life's harsh reality

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There's just so many damn people
In this world who just don't have a clue
This girl I met last week
Told me I was kinda cute
So I came back tonight to see her
But now, in the rear view mirror
And I'm wishing I was some place else
'Cause she's two booths away
And she's sitting with someone else

*
A
B
A
C
C
C

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Donnie knows about
this and that about
Being bit by the
dogs and scratched
by the cats
Been there done that
more stories of the
day
yesterday never
catches up until
Past the break of
dawn

---

Some people's presence is not a gift

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SWIMMING COWS
The boat was sinking
What else was there to do?
So after some thinking
I knew what I had to do
Stared her in the eyes
This time without blinking
I And gently told her we were through

It's quite a rough sea out there
Be careful who you let on board
Often just when you think the coast is clear
You may be attacked (Oh Lord)
So I make sure I'm the one who steers
Because Unwanted passengers I can not afford

The crew which I trust so much
Not one of them can row against the tide
When they're weak I'll be their crutch
I will never leave their side
But only if I know I'll feel their touch
Upon my shoulder with a sense of pride
And though this may seem a bit much
But I'll yank out their tongues if they
ever tell me a lie
Lying's not allowed
Neither are sacred cows
Or All their bull shit!
I'm not a hypocrite
I've just gone legit

Hello I like you
Let us have a cup of tea
set to know each other better
But before we sit down
There's a couple of things that you should know
about me
I'm damaged goods
I'd love to love you if I could
And even if I could try
I could never love anyone again
And I'll tell you why
Because the last one fucked me up
Real bad inside
But I never cried I never cry spark
I lost that magic something
I used to be a dreamer
I've evolved into a cynic
That's trapped in the dark

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Refridgerator Poems
I've been wasting time like I'm gonna live forever
But they say what is here today is gone tomorrow
If I'm a shepherd then its time to lead the way
And if I'm a sheep I'll have to choose who to follow

Look out the man's got the pen again
Pulls it out every mor and then
Smoke some pot and your thoughts can become your friends
Keep on looking for answers until the questions end
What pulls you through?
Is it something bigger than you?
Or is it lesser than you?
It could be that, too.
For so many, this is true!
Oh, so what am I to do?
Lock it in a vault
And point my finger at you
Everything is your fault
Still soul searching yet you haven't got a clue

My passion keeps calling out my name
From The first moment I picked up my pen
to write a poem - I was never the same
Changed forever in a day
and of a picture's worth a thousand words
Then stich around because I've got a lot more to say...
after
I was wating day to day
Living from hand-to-month
Didnt realize I had lost my way
As I kept on heading south
But When the winter wasn't warm
I finally found I'd figured what it was all about
Checked in to get back on course for the long-term
I checked out when the tile took a turn for the worse

---

Sitting here alone
keeping one eye on the cloch
and the other on the door
Should I go home
And let my sickness stop
And just see what is instore?

When your patience is thin
You forget where you've been
Only think about where you're going
And hide all the pain that shouldn't be showing
But my patience is wearing thin
I think I'll let the night pass
as I sleep
And let a new day begin

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Put a bag over her head Ted
Make sure she's on the pill Bill
Just whip out your dick Nick
Ride her like a bike Mike

Do her doggy style Kyle
Hit her from the back Jack
Play with her like a toy Roy
Go and slip it in Vin

Give her a spank Frank
Stick it right between her lips Chip
Tell her her to jump on John
How about sharing Aaron

Tell her right now gimmie Jimmy
Make sure there's no quifs Keith
Go dive in the gorge George
Give her your all Paul

You better make her moan Ramon
Drop the bomb Tom
Measure her by the meter Peter
Get it nice and sweaty Eddie
Look out for puss Russ

If I could free myself
Maybe I could reach someone else
Vanity don't mean anything to me
{struck: line}
Open your heart and {struck: clothes} close your eyes
It's the man who makes the clothes, don't believe the lies
Corderoy pants, floppy hat & tie dies
Image is something - yeah image is nothing
This calamity was once so near and dear to me
{struck: whole line} {struck: confidently}
They said it but forget it walk away confidently

A Perfect World 10/11 20/21
The whole world's a fight I can't get no peace
My mind gets disrupted when its at ease
Watching the sunrise is a long forgotten art
Feet so busy, walking away from the heart
When was the last time you noticed the moon?
Life's so short, you've forgotten so soon
There's more to life than what you've been told
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?
The set pattern you follow is just one of their lies
A world lacking communion, only Me's and I's
Through competition our brotherhood has been broken
As none's acknowledged these word's I've spoken
Everything, even people, filed by order and rank
Number one built the Titanic yet down it sank
There's still time to return these ideas you wore sold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?
Some say if winning isn't everything then why keep score?
Those same people send other mother's sons to war
I could be like you or maybe someone else
One step towards them, on [?] away from myself
As they look on methey ask "how I feel"
I respond "a hampster on a hampster's wheel"
Do you feel trapped like a rat in this world so cold
Then rise up in rebellion could you be so bold?
I'll keep on fighting until I open the door
But at least I know what I'm fighting for
My own little peace and quiet in this world so vast
This present world makes dizzy 'cause its moving too fast
Round and round they go as they spin on their wheels
Trying so hard to keep their poker face when the dealer deals
Stop going for broke when you'll win if you hold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?

The brokers in their suits and ties walking down Wall Street
The ones with the diamond watches
They get so stressed out playing all their Wall Street games
then they get home they yell at their wives and their kids
All for the love of money and nothing more
If they call that rich then you can call me poor
If they tell you the lie that all that glitters is gold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?
As I climb on the mountains or drift on the sea
I find myself alone
No need to look at a watch
No need to punch a clock or hook a way
And I notice my feet when I go for a walk
It could be like this if enough people believe
As the wind blows a flower I plant my seed
The time has come for us to break the mold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?

Inspired on an acid trip
about a year ago. Only got first
6 lines. I worked on it for
study guide. In my ant.-
what they tell me mode.

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10/1 20/21
The whole world's a fight I can't get no peace
My mind gets disrupted when its at ease
Watching the sunrise is a long forgotten art
Feet so busy walking seperate from the heart
When was the last time you noticed the moon?
I'm surprised you've forgotten so soon
There's so more to life than what you've been told
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?
The set pattern you follow is just one of their lies
A world lacking communion, only me's and I's
Through competition our brotherhood has been broken
As noone's acknowledged these words I've spoken
Everything, even people, filed by order and rank
Number one built the Titanic yet down it sank
There's still time left to return these ideas you wore sold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?
Some say if winning isn't everything then why keep score?
Those same people send other mother's sons to war
I could be like you or maybe someone else
One step towards them, one step away from myself
As they look upon me they ask how I feel
I respond "a hampster on a hampster's wheel"
Do you feel trapped like a rat in this world so cold
Then rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?
I'll keep on fighting until I open the door
But at least I know what I'm fighting for
My own little peace and quiet in this world so vast
This present world makes dizzy cause its moving too fast
Round and round they go as they spin on their wheels
Trying so hard to keep their poker face on when the dealer deals
Stop going for broke when you'll win if you hold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?

(Side notes on the left)
fold
gold
hold
mold
old

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The brokers in their suits and ties walking down Wall Street
The ones with the diamond watches and hair so neat
They get so stressed out playing their Wall Street games
When they get home they yell at their wives and forget their own kids' names
All for the love of money and nothing more
If they call that rich then you can call me poor
If they tell you the lie that all that glitters is gold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?
As I climb on the mountains or float on the sea
I find my self alone
No need to look at a watch
No need to punch a clock or becket awa [?]
And I notice my feet when I go for a walk
It could be like this if enough people believe
As the wind blows aflower I plant my seed
The time has come for us to break the mold
Rise up in rebellion, could you be so bold?

Inspired on an acid trip
about a year ago. Only got first
6 lines. I worked on it for
study guide. In my anti-
what they tell me mode.

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And if I was a color
Then baby I'd be blue

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Don't be a dad Brad
Get her wet and hot Scott
Make her panties Sticky Rickey
Never Settle for a hug Doug

Go taste some Candy Andy
Let her ride the bologny Pony Tony
Unbutton her pants Lance
Just give her a good fuck Chuck

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The big day is coming
One day bears your name
Year after year
The time is marked the same
And though people come and go
As the faces change
You know the year ahead
Is going to be strange
Your eyes grow large
You run from the candles
Another year towards responsibility
You're not ready to handle

I've been busy burning bridges
Counting up my losses
See everybody makes me suspicious
Keeping my ear to the door
Trying to catch the latest gossip
who's been eating apples
Ummm delicious
Guess it's better than burning crosses
See Someone hanging
But who is it?

The poor living of the ruch
Hey man fuck that shit
You wanna know where it is at
Well, I'll tell you where it is
We're all going to fall real fast
'Cause we're all 99% hypocrites
uh, yeah, preach turn the other cheek
As you punch them with your fist!
20 percent of the people buy 80 percent of
the booze
Some buy, some sell
Some have been chosen
And the rest of the best get to choose
It's the same thing with the money
1 out of 5 get the honey
Get to be the Queen bed
Everything seems free,
Have no envy, no jealousy

I SAID "Here Comes the money honey"
If that's what you need..
And while we're at it... since I'm an addict
Can I send you some weed?

Oh.. you know...
The love is coming
I'm a wake and baker
HOT, and fresh from the oven

Oh... You know...
The Truth about me
There's only three Letters
that I'll EVER NEED - A, B, C

Eases my mind
During troubled times
Helps me to see and show
and know my light bulb still glows

[crossed out: Kindred] helps by putting
so I can mend broken fences And
Build up my best defenses
From putting up with mental defectives

My world is being neglected
Being beaten every second
[crossed out: Bad choices and mad voices] and choosing wrong selections
We [crossed out: hearing] mad voices and choosing wrong selections, [crossed out: bad] making bad choices
given wrong directions

Oh.. you know...
The Love is coming
And I know we're both scared
Our courage we will summon
FREE OURSELVES FROM FEAR

Quick wit By Brian Rainstorm
With Quick wit
you gotta spit the shit
Before you get dissed then dismissed
It's a one shot world don't get hit
by what's hurled and when it's your turn to shoot...
Don't Miss! [crossed out text]
ALL MY FANS CHEER, I smile Go Buck
while from their fancy chairs wild... that's my style
with wide-eyed stares their Fans Hiss
We won the game... Im @ am the game
I own the game... Everybody knows my name
My claim to fame... It's always been the same
I put in my time... The dues have been paid
I lay it out on the line... Every single day
The world is a Whopper... gonna have it my way
She swallowed, said she liked fast food because
it came right away... Hey ill you know
what
they say:
With Quick wit...

[Left side notes vertical]
G Studios
Sat Boston
mt Sarah R

[Main text]

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[On the far left, sideways]
BRIDGE
Need verse 1, 2, 3 <
Another face grins and smiles - yeah
About how I said I'll walk for miles
But when I looked behind me
You were gone

[Main body]
[4]
I've been holding on...
To a fantasy
To a dream
I've been writing songs...
That include
Both you and me.

[5]
I've been holding on...
To my own perceived
Reality
I've been righting wrongs
Addressing everything and me
And everyone but you

[6]
I hear two voices in my ear...
Half the time I want to own the world
The rest of the time I want to disappear
- INSTRUMENTAL BREAK -
Like a pendulum - swinging back and
forth

[7]
like a husband saying "I love you"
then asking for a divorce - yeah.

[8]
I see two face in the mirror:
One man hides from hisown shadow
That same man then conquers his fears

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The guy dressed in black
He was in the back
Spreading the word
to all the little boys

Once they began
to cry and shout
That's when the driver
had to get out...
When he could no longer
turn a blind eye

Something...
something that rhymes with smile
La la la...hmm...pedophile!!!!
I'll give you just one guess
who's now unemployed...
Hey, by the way...
does anyone need a ride?

STUPID GOD FREAKS
I am still alive
(cigarette hangs from mouth)
Even though I try
to kill myself daily

I'm still breathing...
(cough)
but just barely

Someday I'm gonna die
Perhaps that why
I don't choose fact
But fiction
When it comes time to talk
Over the subject of religion

I have realized
That there's something
Greater, more important than me
I am just another ant
In this hurried race
To hell with humanity
Because I found Christianity

And I am learning my place
When to sit, stand and kneel
I'm becoming a nameless face
But hey...they say I am healed
So I boarded their bus...
But soon there was no
driver at the wheel...

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Napalm smells like history,
Though you won't find that in history
Books don't always paint the picture complete
Looks like you got your potatoes but forgot the meat
The whole story has never been told
You know that pen and paper can always be sold
The pages are all ripped and torn but the cover looks new
The phases we go through are like born only the beginning's true
Ever raise the issue of race relations?
Never hear the music just change the station
How often have you ever heard the story of the slaves
Now you've finally learned there's no easy way out of the maze
Twisting and turning in false reflections
Listening to the echoes of voices coming [?] directions
Who's voice do you hear when you seek the truth
Do you believe the fool or do you search for proof?

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Napalm smells like victory
Though you won't find that in history
Books don't always paint the picture complete
Looks like you got your potatos but forgot the meat
The whole story has never been told
You know that pen and paper can always be sold
The pages are all ripped and torn, but the cover looks new
The phases we go through are like being born only the beginning's true
Ever raise the issue of race relations?
Never hear the music just change the station
How often have you ever heard the crying [?] slaves
Now you've finally learned there's no easy way out of the maze
Twisting and turning in false reflections
Listening to the echoes of voices from [?] coming are [?] directions
Who's voice do you hear when you seek the truth
So you believe the fool or do you search for proof?

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[S] [O] [2]

TWO SEASONS
I see black clouds rolling in
Don't know where they're going
Don't know where they've been
I know some I've been hanging over my head
Some been hiding heaven, others mourning the dead
Some men chase shooting stars
Some men howl at the face of the moon
While other men try to change the weather
Trying to turn every month into June
But those men aren't like me
Things like that will never do
I only want what I see
And what I'm looking at is you
And now I see the clouds are blowing away
But I don't know what that means so I don't know what to say
I've seen 'em before, I know I'll see 'em again
I've felt the warmth of sunshine, been touched by a cold, cold rain

It seems my life has just two seasons
No more, no less, that's all
It seems my life has just two seasons
No summer, no winter - only spring and fall
Sometimes when I look into your eyes
I feel I've been reborn
And still yet other times,
I can feel my heart become broken & torn
There's no greater pain than letting what you want
slip right through your fingertips
Sometimes it hurts, sometimes it don't
But the burning in your heart still lingers
Just like the touch of her lips
What I feel I might not always say
But I need you tonight as much as I did today
What you should be knowing
Is that my love for you is still growing
Let us hope it never fades away

When I got outta line it seems I lost my place
I spent too much time trying to find my way
when I spoke out against the power that be
since I was on the wrong side of the fence I had to leave...
Got voted off the mainland that I tried so hard
I tried the best I can, man but democracy got the best of me
All because I tried to warn the people of what they failed to see
But what got lost was original thought - something
you can't watch on T.V.
Only can you find it... deep inside your mind if
you block out everything - that's right...
So Don't even listen to me...
[Crossed out: Instrumental break]
So many things get lost... or skeletized in the closet
you hide from everything - that's right...
So Don't repeat Doomed History
When I say I'm doing fine you know I'm lying
I'm slowly dying inside to save face
[Arrow pointing to:] 'cause I feel like I'm failing
my fellow human race

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SPOKEN WORD POETRY

01 a friend
02 a perfect world
03 advice
04 all in good time
05 as for me
06 aum...what she said...om
07 best left
08 big shoes
09 butterfly
10 call it fate
11 crystal ball
12 daylight again
13 deep seeded
14 dirt nap
15 empty eyes
16 exit the sandman
17 expired
18 ex-poem
19 facing the dawn
20 fate is a word
21 fly swatter of love
22 groovy gravy
23 he said she said
24 heart strings
25 heavy machines
26 heavy to light cream
27 in a click
28 it doesn't matter
29 it's your turn
30 jewelry box

31 looking for love
32 lost and found
33 love it or leave it
34 lyrical groom & musical wife
35 melody of sorrow
36 michelangelo and marble
37 my precious
38 nap time
39 now boarding
40 only shared with you
41 pandora's box
42 pen and paper
43 pendulum
44 pretty toys
45 rain
46 rehab
47 secret room
48 shades
49 silhouette of a stranger
50 slip stream
51 solitary parade
52 stranger...then fiction
53 synergy
54 ten feet tall
55 the end of the road
56 triangle
57 underrated
58 used to be
59 where I am from
60 within reach

Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist

DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!

my website is:
READTOM.COM

Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

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[Top left card]
DON'T WORRY,
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FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Top second card]
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Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Top third card]
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my website is:
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Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Top right card]
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I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Middle left card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Middle second card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
Tom Jensen
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Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Middle third card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
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Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Middle right card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
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Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Bottom left card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Bottom second card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Bottom third card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
Tom Jensen
Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Bottom right card]
DON'T WORRY,
I WILL SAVE THE WORLD
FROM EVIL !!!
my website is:
READTOM.COM
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Thinker, Writer, Poet,
Songwriter and Activist
Email:
tomjensenlyrics@yahoo.com

[Far right text]
Congress Ranks Last in Confidence in Institutions

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Confidence in Institutions -- % Great Deal/Quite a Lot
Now I am going to read you a list of institutions in American society. Please tell me how much confidence you, yourself, have in each one -- a great deal, quite a lot, some, or very little?

RANKED BY 2010 PERCENTAGE | June 14-17, 2009 | July 8-11, 2010 | Change
| % | % | Pct. pts.
The military | 82 | 76 | -6
Small business | 67 | 66 | -1
The police | 59 | 59 | 0
The church or organized religion | 52 | 48 | -4
The medical system | 36 | 40 | 4
The U.S. Supreme Court | 39 | 36 | -3
The presidency | 51 | 36 | -15
The public schools | 38 | 34 | -4
The criminal justice system | 28 | 27 | -1
Newspapers | 25 | 25 | 0
Banks | 22 | 23 | 1
Television news | 23 | 22 | -1
Organized labor | 19 | 20 | 1
Big business | 16 | 19 | 3
Health Maintenance Organizations (HMOs) | 18 | 19 | 1
Congress | 17 | 11 | -6

GALLUP

Military Still No. 1
The military continues its

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TWO SEASONS
I see black clouds rolling in
Don't know where they're going
Don't know where they've been

I know some've been hanging over my head
Some been hiding heaven, others mourning the dead

Some men chase shooting stars
Some men howl at the face of the moon
Whiles other men try to change the weather
Trying to turn every month into June

But those men aren't like me
Things like that will never do
I only want what I see
And what i'm looking at is you

And now I see the clouds are blowing away
But I don't know what that means so I don't know what to say

I've seen 'em before, I know I'll see 'em again
I've felt the warmth of sunshine, been touched by a cold, cold rain

---

It seems my life has just two seasons
No more, no less, that's all
It seems my life has just two seasons
No summer, no winter - only spring and fall

Sometimes when I look into your eyes
I feel I've been reborn
And still yet other times colder,
I can feel my heart become broken & torn

There's no greater pain then letting what you want
slip right through your fingertips
Sometimes it hurts, sometimes it don't
But the burning in your heart still lingers
Just like the touch of her lips

What I feel I might not always say
But I need you tonight as much as I did today
[?]
What you should be knowing
Is that my love for you is still growing
Let us hope it never fades away

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SLAP ME
I'm getting angry... unhappy
If I start crying... please slap me
Just Put me in my place
Slap that frown right off my fucking face
You see I'm in a delicate state
Been like this for years
How long will I have to wait?
So many emotions
Though only my bleeding is constant
Do whatever it takes
For that's how bad I want it
Yet the only face I trust
Is that of the moon
I could never believe in us
It's far, far too soon
I may never believe in anyone
Not with all the women I've seen
That's why inside my pants I pack two guns
One's quick on the draw
The other... noone knows where its been

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A STRANGER in the MANGER
I've been thinking that my life needs some changing
Some things still need some rearranging
And even though I wouldn't say I'nangry
If everything starts to stay the same -so strangly
I knew what to do back in two thousand and two -so blame me
If Maybe I was watching the world go by
And never even blinked an eye
Maybe I was watching too many sunrises
And never read the rules I was supposed to comply with
You know the one with the stranger who owns the manger
Its so full of danger that it's a real cliff hanger
Forget the name, probably forgotten now but had its fifteen minutes of fame
Includes both love and pain, the honorable and the rotten, and the blind and lame
They said no other book would ever equal, then why'd they write the sequel?
I'm waiting
They believed they were all alone, until I told em I'm writing my own
Started calling me a false preacher, I responded I'm a knowledge teacher
To which they yelled don't you even try it, you better be quiet, words
I thought they were gonna jump me [?] of insanity
like that can cause a riot and [?]
But I got the right to say it, no one has to okay it, no one has to obey
-it, the constitution states that plain ly
Choosing making your own religion is just like going fishin'
Sometimes you have to throw it back in
When you know there's bigger fish in the pond
For this is the only planet I know for certain that I'm on
Don't want to be battized in a pool of sin
Trying my best to make certain that I don't fall in

Everybody dances for money
I dance for free
Everybody's a slave to something
I work for free
Everybody's got something to sell you
Is what they're telling me
I stopped [illegible] falling for advertisements
Once I bought into poverty
You don't care about the name you wear
When you don't have enough to eat
Lace and frills lead to unpaid bills
Turned off electricity, water and heat

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[Left top sheet]
You know you were drinking too much for too long
When you find yourself
Living in a Jimmy Buffet song
I over extended my stay in Margaritaville
I'm still wasted this morning
and will be for most of the day
[scribbled out section]
Now some people will claim
That the worm is to blame
Why my brain feels like it's been scraping
asphalt
But I've gotten to know
Jose Cuervo
And we hang out together alot

[Bottom left sheet]
I woke up hangover and feeling depressed
Looked to my right, How'd I get into this mess?
Felt something on my shoulder, got to get this weight off my chest
It seems that last night I rode the fat girl express
I was sick to my stomach, a bad taste in my mouth
I heard a noise in the bathroom the door opened and another
came out
It was the middle of summer but I think I went south

[Right sheet]
too much
You know you were drinking for too long
When you find yourself living in a Jimmy
I'm still wasted this morning Buffet song
I over extended my stay
In margaritaville
My brain feels like
It's been scraping asphalt
That Some people claim
the There's a woman to blame
worm and his
is to blame
It's Jose Cuervo [scribbled out] tequila's fault

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You know you were drinking too much for too long
When you find yourself
Living in a Jimmy Buffet song
I over extended my stay in Margaritaville
I'm still wasted this morning
and will be for most of the day
[The large black scribbled-out section contains the following words partially visible through the ink:]
My brain feels like it's been scraping asphalt
Now some people will claim
That the worm is to blame
But I know
It's Jose Cuervo
And this tequila has [?]
Now some people will claim
That the worm is to blame
why my brain feels like it's been scraping
asphalt
But I've gotten to know
Jose Cuervo
And we hang out together alot

---

[written vertically in the right margin:]
I [?] extended
blame
to
is
the
worm
[main text block, oriented horizontally:]
You know you were drinking for too long
when you find yourself living in a Jimmy
Buffet song
I'm still wasted [this morning and for most of the day] [crossed out: from] my stay
in margaritaville
My brain feels like
It's been scraping asphalt
Some people claim
[crossed out: There's a woman to blame and his]
It's Jose Cuervo [crossed out: and] [?] taquila's fault
[above the first line:]
too much

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I woke up hungover and feeling depressed
Looked to my right, How'd I get into this mess?
Felt something on my shoulder, got to get this weight off my chest
It seems that last night I rode the fat girl express

I was sick to my stomach, a bad taste in my mouth
I heard a noise in the bathroom the door opened and another came out
It was the middle of summer but I think I went south

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Stopping to morn
the dead can
get you killed
around here...

We don't bless
is no rance
No matter what
the sign says
It's all just a mirage
An image which will
Slowly fade and
Then disappear

That's something

We don't discuss much
Since some things
Are still taboo
around here

In the nod of ahead
A look in the eye
And you know
what it is you got
to do...

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I follow
YOUR Lead
And Act
As the go - between
For the workers
And the Queen Bee
When she keeps
all the honey
And Gives the hive none
The place starts buzzing
That something mvst be done
Hog jock
ALL MY ANTENIE
ARE AIMED AT ME

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8 Sure there's no cure for your cancer
8 Nor for the common cold
8 You see we give the same answer
8 You who are lucky die old
8 born

9 Though you might have stumpy digits
8 An extra pair of chomasones
8 Still gotta learn to live with it
8 Fucking tourettes or malformed bones

8 Don't cry you're a paraplegic
8 Or I'll go and show you a quad
10 Steal plate in your head ain't so tragic
8 Could be worse it could be a rod
[arrow pointing to "steel plate"]
[arrow pointing to "rod"]

7 Let us Face it... Life ain't fair
10 and it's true that perfection is rare
7 My Grandpa's got an afro
10 At twenty I started losing my hair

7 Let us face it... life ain't fair
10 Look, somebody had to get married to Cher
7 same guy skied into a tree
10 Sonny lived and died so miserably

7 Let vs face it... life ain't fair
10 Join'd a P.O.W and an S.O.B
7 Count your blessings... be happy
10 You [crossed out: were the one who picked] weren't the one who picked Palin V.P

have you ever bought
a picture
just becam se you
liked the frame?

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Molly... There's no more hiding
Molly... Where did you go?
Molly... It's time for deciding
Molly... tell me... do you love me so?
Oh... and will we be together forever
wont you let me know Molly... I'd hold you and I
Molly... Can't you see
You've become the only one
who could ever be an anchor for me
Molly... Without you I'd crumble
And Surely I'd stumble with the first sign of trouble
And before long I know that I'd fall
Molly... you are what gives me strength
Beside my
It's your picture inside the frame up on the wall
The best the artists
accent It's your face that [illegible] to trace
Molly... To use as the template for when the sculptor creates
the most perfect porcelin doll

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It's a good way to die
No, I wouldn't mind goin' out that way
A nice thing to have written on your grave

Lots of people would talk...
I wonder what they'd say?
He shot that straight but didn't always
know that sometimes it's best
To just walk away

Some may say
You're a little crazy
that would be
Not telling the rest of the story

---

The fog is fading
Clouds burning up in the haze
What's left is being blown far away
Today just may end up being a good day
Maybe tonight if the air feels right...
Together we'll go take a ride up to the hillside
and go star gazing

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It's now proven
You don't have to be black
to be a nigger
You just have to believe
That a gun makes you bigger
Either black or white
when it comes down to the fight
A real man uses his hands
And punches he lands
To avoid a cell
That's a living hell
Because he used bullets
Instead of using his head
As he sits ands rots in prison
Because the other guy's dead

TOTEM POLE

I took my axe to the top of my Totem Pole
Flexed my muscles and let that goddamn thing go
With one swift chop a head fell to the ground
Try to bury that sunuva bitch where it'll never be found

I've been climbing the ladder of drugs
Almost to the top of the wrung
And I just decided to take a step down
That's why I swung
Straight down the middle and follow through
You don't get measured by what you say
But rather what you do

Alcohol has had its days, its months, its years
I'll be my own magician if I can make a bottle disappear
Step by step, booze and butts and them bongs
For they've been the inspiration for far too many songs

Almost time to choose something better
Almost time to come back to earth
Almost time to slay the three-headed monster
Almost time to lift the curse

You maybe young but it still gets old
Gotta reshape your life, white break the mold
The one that you created while your ego was being deflated
Your balloon filled up with led so now it won't fly
Just what happened to your head and blinded your eyes?

Your cross weighs the same as your Totem Pole
Every day it gets heavier so you need a bigger hole
Every face has a pair of eyes able to stare into your soul
Once it grows too strong it's out of your control

FEEDING TIME
Pens, pencils and paper
And lots of it...
Yeah, 'cause i'm gonna need it

I got a musical monster
living in me
And it's time for feeding
(Might I suggest you all stand behind the dotted line)
(It can get a little messy around here right about
this time)

Gnashing and gnawing
Creeping and crawling
Hungry and growling
Not listening is not allowed branded
Less you don't mind dying a coward
So you know you must travel onward

Capture the magic of the music held within this
Keep on feeding the beast that you've grown to realm

Until it's time for his release hold on tightly know well
For Surely he has got more stories to the keys of his cell
notes to play and
still more

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TIM'S SONG

How much money does it take?
For you to feel good about yourself?
Would you be willing to give away fifty bucks?
And give it to someone else

To someone whom you've never met before
Would you ever trust someone who came upon hard times
Would you consider it a lesson learned
If you got screwed, forget writing rhymes

Would you part with money
If it meant doing good deeds?
Would you ever trust your honey
To a pack of swarming bees?

What if the man talked of being reborn
A Christian soul who'd finally found his way
Would you risk a lesson to be learned?
For short money that you would gladly pay?

Would you trust in human nature?
Even though you equate it with the devil?
If it meant that you'd stand tall in stature
Money to be used for good, money to be used for evil

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Do you trust yourself enough?
To decide to be the judge and jury?
And even though times are tough
Is there anyone who'd you deem worthy?

If that question ever applied to me
I know where I'd put my faith
If say time will tell and time we'll see
So I guess I'll just have to wait

I figure if you never go out on a limb
Then you'll never know if you'd done wrong
There must be a reason why some recite hymns
And another reason why some sing songs

Well at least I've told my story
Now I've said all I have to say
If I'm right I know in god I'd found my glory
And if wrong it will all get sorted out
On my judgement day

At least I was never afraid
To get another chance to get into the gates of eden
Maybe someday I'll have it made
Or else I'll be left at the stairway to hell
As I'm lying on the ground bleeding

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Do you trust yourself enough?
To decide to be yourown judge & jury?
Even though times are tough
Is there anyone who'd you'd [crossed out text] deem worthy

If the question ever applied to me
I know where I'd put my faith
I'd say time will tell and in time we'll see
So I guess I'll just have to wait

I figure if you'd never go out on a limb
Then you'd never know if you'd done wrong
There must be a reason why some recite hymns
And another reason why some recite songs

Well at least I've told my story
Now I've said all that I have to say
If I'm right I know in God I'll find my glory
And if wrong it will all get sorted out
On that my judgement day

At least I was never afraid
To get another chance to get into the Garden of Eden
Maybe someday I'll have it made
Or else I'll be left at the stairway to hell
As I'm lying on the ground bleeding

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Tim's Song

How much money does it take?
For you to feel good about yourself?
Would you be willing to give away fifty bucks?
And give it to someone else

To Some one whom you've never met before
Would you ever trust someone who came upon hard times
Would you consider it a lesson well learned
If you got screwed, forget about writing rhymes

Would you part with money
If it meant doing good deeds
Would you trust your [crossed out] honey
To a pack of swarming bees?

what if he talked about being reborn?
A Christian soul who'd Finally found his way
Would you risk a lesson to be learned
For short money would you gladly pay?

Would you put your trust in human nature
Even though you equate it with the devil
If it meant you'd stand tall in stature
Money to be used for good, money used for evil

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TOTEM POLE

I took my axe to the top of my Totem Pole
Flexed my muscles and let that goddamn thing go
With one swift chop a head fell to the ground
Try to bury that sunuva bitch where it'll never be found

I've been climbing the ladder of drugs
Almost to the top of the wrung
And I just decided to take a step down
That's why I swung
Straight down the middle and follow through
You don't get measured by what you say
But rather what you do

Alcohol has had its days, its months, its years
I'll be my own magician if I can make a bottle disappear
Step by step, booze and butts and them bongs
For they've been the inspiration for far too many songs

Almost time to choose something better
Almost time to come back to earth
Almost time to slay the three-headed monster
Almost time to lift the curse

You maybe young but it still gets old
Gotta reshape your life, white break the mold
The one that you created while your ego was being deflated
Your balloon filled up with led so now it won't fly
Just what happened to your head and blinded your eyes?

Your cross weighs the same as your Totem Pole
Every day it gets heavier so you need a bigger hole
Every face has a pair of eyes able to stare into your soul
Once it grows too strong it's out of your control

You're my butterfly...
I watch you gently glide
As you float by
So gracefully you go floating by...
As I am mesmerized by...
Your beauty and your grace
Oh... the smile on your face
yeah... Oh. Oh. Oh?
What can I say?

You're my butterfly...
In this cacoon you're encased
And I wish nothing but to
Release you from this [?].
Maze and from this place - yeah
[?]
with all my heart I wish...
I want - for you - to fly away
To become what you were born
to be someday...

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The Light inside your Lamp
There now is a tuition for philosophy class
Whoever reads my stuff
Should have to give me a dollar
Maybe I'll sell poems on the street
For just a buck a piece
Maybe ten for five or five for three
Smack myself in the face
Never sell out
I'd go against all the shit
That I been talking about
I've finally figured out how we can
All sleep together forever peacefully
In death, In trust
All for the better
The betterment of us
Plant a good seed
Should all men & women
Shout this decree
Try to make everyone I see
Better from meeting me
If Every one makes everybody better
Then we can finally live together
This one don't rhyme so great
But it's the light - it means that much
It's more than letters & sounds to me...

Here's something those with two jobs
Already know:
of this bitter pill has become hard
to swallow...
Health care's gone and
Social security will follow...
That's why [crossed out text: I live] + live for today
And I Forget tomorrow...
try + to [arrow pointing up]... I smile all the while,
Ummm... my eyes are hollow
[crossed out text: He] Overworked and underpaid
slowly dying from my minimum wage

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humility
Sooner, Later Never - you're gonna get it
For we know the greatest of lessons
When left unlearned

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I AM The Rules

PYSICAL STRENGTH
in child grows

parent
mom lashes out
as defense mech.
Survival mode

Brittain writes the scripts
America provides the actor
welcome to the shit
And sure there's other factors
Religion is the tool
And also makes the rules

Parasites separate from the source

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I AM The Rules
PHYSICAL STRENGTH
in child grows
parent
mom lashes out
as defense mech.
Survival mode

Brittain writes the scripts
America provides the actors
welcome to the shit
And sure there's another factor
Religion is the tool
And also makes the rules

Parasites separate from the source

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I feed my inner rat
With the drippings of my soul
I sit and comprehend
How I'm losing all control

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[On the left page, very faintly visible/indented:]
Have you joined programs
I did one campings
with the gardens of the
city and minor toy

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* Eventually you are going to have negative
thoughts about the person who took away
your second favorite person even if that
person is your favorite person.

* Core Three or Core Four

* If I was a Danish citizen making
200,000 Krones a year would we be
roommates?

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Did you know there are five hundred
shads of gray
on that the human eye can see a candle
from fourteen miles away

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I lead the followers
But I play follow the leader
Sure I win the war
Yet there is more than one defeater

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Pain only comes when you have nowhere to direct your love to
Some people collect knowledge - I try to acquire wisdom. Wisdom is knowledge [scratched out word] sprinkled with love.

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OCTOBER 7 MONTH
Stickout arm lying test
Paper Store call and talk to
Buy Marmite for Judy's/Ma
Read Tom [?] I RO

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What I learned in Denmark
1. I'm a father first
2. No meat is easy
3. My natural tendency is to be an Alpha male
4. Kids bring out the best in me
5. I am very, very close to being an actual adult
6. My will power and self-control are very strong
7. UCL is achievable
8. I way undervalued the importance of money and its role in MY world
9. I need to be less lazy and more assertive when it comes to certain aspects of myself
10. ROCKS ROCK and I'm a ROCK!!!
11. My ego and my selfishness/powers of manipulation are my strength and my weakness and need to be watched and monitored

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I just placed my head inside the stove
Too bad it's electric
I felt like this, felt so alone
Does that make me eccentric?
Now I know there's been worse cases than me
But how they found their way out I still can't see
Some call it bad luck, some call it fate
Here a stand in my tunnel as it's getting late
And it's much too late to simply turn the page
For such a creature of habit at such a young age
So many faces over time have just seemed to fade away
In just the past five years not one has stayed
At this moment I can trace them all
I cry out to my self and put another stone on the wall
When my castle is finished they'll be no more hurt and pain
For the drawbridge'll be raised, the windows barred and chained
Maybe then I'll finally sleep in peace and quiet
I'll be all by my self there's no way to deny it
Newer have to worry about who's the next to leave
At least I'll have my own garden to hell with Eve
I've thought about every single day
Come to realize it's the only way
Seeing what I've seen, done what I've done, been where I've been
But they'll be no more troubles if I never come out and no one
comes in

I'm the kid in the class who likes to clown
If you missed what was said I wrote it down
Unless my mind is freely roaming and it be
Immersed in the cleansing pool of poetry.
For then I couldn't be paying attention
to what was truely important
and that is what is trapped inside my soul
When it wants to come out it's outta my control
It doesn't give a damn about me
Just screams Stop, look, [?] listen and feel
keeps on saying there's this big plan for me
I don't care what I do just so long as it's real
Ever since I underwent deep meditation
I finally found what makes this world go round
After many long months of stoned contemplation
I'm finally ready to reveal what I've found
Sorry, could you repeat the question?
Oops, I didn't realize I was the only one who talked
If that idea was a ship then it just went off to sea
we'll have to catch next time it hits the dock
Funny, I don't remember things as well as I seemed
to yesterday
It just goes to show we're growing
older every day.

If I could turn back this clock
Pause the tich tich toch
Reset everyone's score to zero
At least then I'd be somebody's hero.
No rich and no poor, no ceiling no floor
No more stacking the deck no more
Feed the starving children today
Watch the fat man as he wastes away
My advice is the world's paying the price
You could save a life for about a buch a day, hey hey
I guess we call it writer's block
When I don't wanna write cause everything sucks
Lost my bread and butter
My gift -
Feels dead I despise my father and mother
Pro-choice, poster child of the world
Dying inside, I cried just like a little girl
Empty as an oyster that's lost its pearl
Like a unicorn without a horn
My only creation is devestation
Why was I born
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could capture this emotion
lock it away down the bottom of the ocean
certainty don't mean anything to me
hiding my time while hiding in my rhyme
I'll be here long after closing time
hitting my bong & getting along
Insanity don't mean anything to the
There ya read it I said it it's in my
book of poetry.
[Scribbled out text: you start losing you [?] this
[?] searching for something real
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MY EASTERN LOVE

As time crawls by and I stare above
I dream of you, my Eastern love
I see your eyes as I draw your face
You take me away to a better place
Where hatred is gone
It Has been erased
I live in your eyes
As I draw your face
I drink to your health
And as I raise my glass
I toast to the future and time
That has not yet passed
My Eastern love, the limit is the sky
The feelings I have for you
Could circle the world wide
My Eastern love, in the shadows you
hide
You've come all this way to be at my
Side

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ODE TO STEVE
Sounds of gurggling fill the midnight air
I awake and look yet noone's there
The sound of running water,
that which pures the soul
Born of no mother or father
Reincarnated as a toilet bowl
Just as skeletons rattle chains
Houses creek and shutters bang
Here lies a spirit surely possessed
Until we leave he'll never rest
His first visit, rather appearance, was Halloween
A time of trickery and treachery and
yellow moon beams
A time of tricks and treats and
candied sweets
when our stomachs get sick from
all the candy we eat
And in our time of desperation
we look for a seat
Great Steve became angry because on him
we chose to sit
And due to all the chocolate we
gave him diarheaa shit
Now steve rattles and shakes with this
message he sends
Some day I'll [?] shit on you and
I'll get [?] my revenge

You gotta trust in what you know
Do it!
Let it go
Don't hide from fear like most everyone else
Say "I'm right here go fuck yourself"
I ain't running any more
Getting even gonna reset the score
I'm tired of all the times I've let myself down
I never let my light shine I'm living in a ghost town
Yeah I used to point my finger and pass around the blame
Throwing rocks at sinners from behind my window pane
The only place that I was solitarily confined
Calling out everything and hated most people
Been crying out loud about how this city's self absorbed
Through all the shit no one's listened to My bitching and just I've grown old!

You gotta trust in what you know
Do it!
Let it go
They say youth is wasted on the young
Said by those who don't like what they've done
And where I've been hiding is off the map
Hanging with the fossils and artifacts
I've grown out of touch and self-absorbed
There are still parts of me left to be explored
needing to get burned
If you're afraid you miss a lot in life
The spark of a new flame and dinner by candle light
and

SEXUAL INTELLECTUAL
Some say I'm another link in the chain
Born into the information generation
I got all my maps and my books
And I give them a look
But I still can't tell which direction I'm facing
That sort of branding for others may be true
But I got my own term that I like to use
I call myself a sexual intellectual
Another fucking know it all
But at least I know my place in this hurried race
Stay in line please follow the signs
And whatever you do please don't touch the wall
For they're very, very breakable
Oops is that retractable
These people are like vegetables
very, very negotiable
Easy to bend easier to mold
Easy to be bought, even easier to be sold
Seems as if all the information they hold
Has taken up room in their souls
And shattered their wills
And when it's time to pay the bill
They'll see they're the one who owes
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We're all woven
We're not made
Maybe there's a great creator
But

When will this clouded curtain lift?
When will these winds begin to shift?
You're all so blind to what I've been living with
Given up trying to find a reason to live
Within the confines of the lines drawn by hypocrites
True happiness is just a dream
And being great ain't as great as it seems
My idea of an American
is someone who's fat, ignorant, lazy and mean
When someone who's being angry that they're someone other
than who they could have been
Another body busy being angry that they're someone other
than who they should have been
[strikethrough: [?]] and the moral of the story
Never ever forgetting history
Forever Regretting yesterday are all the wasted days
So far unable to let things be are all recycled and old
Wondering why things went this way preaching but not
Still trying to unlock this mystery eating without
But you still end your day by screaming fucking A swallowing
Sometimes you wouldn't mind if it all went away
just like today
There is one single great hypocrisy
We are lacking a song in the name of mediocrity
Now we're all blessed since I guessed it was up to me

Well my days of drugs are over
I got lucky like a 4leaf clover
Happy saint patricks Day
The memories and the stories
will never go away
Sometimes I reminisce
Seems like just the other day
white boy in dreads
puts a gun to my head
If he could afford bullets
I may be dead
Silly me, I gave him money for the stuff
Sometimes enough is never enough
Done somuch my heart could explode
He took my money to the store
Now he's got something to reload
Silly me, next wandering soul to come to the door
May not realize what's in store
The smell of death is all too clear
Must be something in the air

SWIMMING COWS
The boat was sinking
What else was there to do?
So after some thinking
I knew what I had to do
Stared her in the eyes
This time without blinking
I And gently told her we were through

It's quite a rough sea out there
Be careful who you let on board
Often just when you think the coast is clear
You may be attacked (Oh Lord)
So I make sure I'm the one who steers
Because Unwanted passengers I cannot
afford

The crew which I trust so much
Not one of them can row against the tide
When they're weak I'll be their crutch
I will never leave their side
But only If I know I'll feel their touch
Upon my shoulder with a sense of pride,
And though this may seem a bit much
But I'll yank out their tongues if they
ever tell me a lie
Lyings not allowed
Neither are sacred cows
Or All their bull shit!
I'm not a hypocrite
I've just gone legit

As I stand before the judge and see he licks his lips
I think they gonna hang me and I know
I think of all the lead paint chips as a kid
I think they made me angry!
I wet the bed from warm ahh to cold
So I light a fire and watch it grow
Put in juvenile hall for not following the law
Got CAUGHT trying to steal a Jane's Addiction CD
punched mall security before LAPD got ahold of me
I'm white so I survived but that was close
Like a Narcan jam right after an overdose!
For the seventh time I'm standing up here in
front of the man! mam