DEFINITELY NOT LOVE
SET LIST SIX (6)
1 Expired
(beginning part)……...58
2 Face To Face
3 Cry Me a
River…….59
4 Nothing At
All…………….61
5 Matches To Burn
6 Heart
Strings………...63
7 Endless Chorus
8 Nameless…………….65
9 Below Zero
10 Lament………………..66
11 He Said She Said
12 Half
Told……………….68
13 Jewelry
Box………..69
EXPIRED
I
am hoping it's not true
But
our time may have expired
Sure
I still sing for you
But
lacking passion, lacking fire
Or
at least not like I used to
I
won't lie I'm not a liar
My
eyes still like looking at you
Oh
-- but now I closed them
when
I get tired
FACE
TO FACE
You
can run and you can hide
But
I know your face
It
always shows
That
you can’t lie…
So
I don’t call you
On
the phone
And
now you know
The
reason why…
I
read your letters
So
full of love
You
tell me I’m the one
That
you’re thinking of
Yet
I know your gift
When
it comes to the pen
As
I think to myself
You’re
at it again
One
line leads to another line
One
lie leads to another lie
I
know all the walls
You
use to hide behind -
It’s
true
So
I wait outside your place
To
meet and greet you face-to-face
So
I know whether to cry or laugh
When
I look back
at
all those paragraphs –
From
you
As
I think back to all
the
things you’ve said
For
I long to know
what’s
really inside your head
What
you’re thinking to yourself
and
also about me
When
you say that destiny
is
what we were meant to be
Together
and forever
for
it was written in the stars
Yes,
this is the true you
and
this is what you really are
Or
whether this is just another plot
and
I am just your toy
Am
I really your man
or
just a silly little boy?
CRY
ME A RIVER
Cry
me a river...
Ten
miles wide
Your
warm tears will never
Send
a shiver...
Up
and down my spine
Cry
me a river...
Then
let me know
when
you are through
Of
everything that
you
promised
Nothing
was delivered
When
you don't feel as if you're one
Then
you should go back to being two
Cry
me a river...
And
then please won't you paddle away?
I've
grown tired of sitting in the dark
Watching
the clock
Trying
to smile all the while...
I'm
waiting for you
I
would have put you first
If
you put me anywhere but last
Yet
as our time in life is slipping
Such
time you lose too fast
The
time for chasing rainbows
Is
now as distant as the stars
Through
the mountains you've traversed
You
have discovered who you are
You
bruise when you bleed
Accept
this fact as fate
You
know now what you need
For
him it's now too late
You
would have put him first
If
he put you anywhere but last
But
as you toasted to the New Year
Broken
shattered glass
You
would have shown him love
Had
he given you a wink
You
would have filled his cup with wine
Had
he asked you for a drink
To
the sparkling gleam in his eye
You've
since become blind
Now
this is all you can think of
Whenever
he enters your mind:
Cry
me a river...
Ten
miles wide
Your
warm tears will never again
send
a shiver...
Up
and down my spine
Cry
me a river...
And
then let me know
when
you are through
Of
everything that was once promised
Nothing
was delivered
When
you don't feel as if you're one
then
you should go back to being two
FACE
TO FACE
You
can run and you can hide
But
I know your face
It
always shows
That
you can’t lie…
So
I don’t call you
On
the phone
And
now you know
The
reason why…
I
read your letters
So
full of love
You
tell me I’m the one
That
you’re thinking of
Yet
I know your gift
When
it comes to the pen
As
I think to myself
You’re
at it again
One
line leads to another line
One
lie leads to another lie
I
know all the walls
You
use to hide behind -
It’s
true
So
I wait outside your place
To
meet and greet you face-to-face
So
I know whether to cry or laugh
When
I look back
at
all those paragraphs –
From
you
As
I think back to all
the
things you’ve said
For
I long to know
what’s
really inside your head
What
you’re thinking to yourself
and
also about me
When
you say that destiny
is
what we were meant to be
Together
and forever
for
it was written in the stars
Yes,
this is the true you
and
this is what you really are
Or
whether this is just another plot
and
I am just your toy
Am
I really your man
or
just a silly little boy?
NOTHING
AT ALL
You
walked up to me
With
my clothes in your hands
We
had a conversation about things
Only
I could understand
Not
a tear I did see
For
I kept my eyes closed
The
way in which I feel
I'm
the only one who knows
You
begged and pleaded from your knees
Every
other word I heard was please
Please
don't you go away
Please,
please
Don't
you leave me this way
Only
I knew that our fate was sealed
I
kept my eyes closed
So
that nothing was revealed
Someday
all your wounds will heal
Someday
I will tell you
how
I really feel...
I
once asked you
to
save me from myself
Though
soon I learned
That
you can't leave that up
To
anyone else
I
asked you to change your ways
Though
soon I realized
That
some colors won't fade
The
only one to help me is myself
For
sometimes some things
Cannot
be entrusted to someone else
Your
inspiration was once my soul
But
soon your hatred was for me
And
the love I stole
You
thought I'd take your heart
And
keep it forever
But
in this world of uncertainty
You
can never say never
So
many red-eyed days
So
many nights filled with unrest
I
was finally forced to realize
This
may be too great a test
So
many sleepless nights
And
soon daydreams of another's face
I
knew I couldn't stay
While
wishing I was in some other place
Your
heart's filled with gold
Yet
your eyes are so cold
And
the mirror which you hold
Reflects
the face of no one at all
Your
weakness often showed
And
soon the time grew old
As
no dream I had was too bold
The
ceiling of our love was bound to fall
No
regrets
Though
memory will not soon forget
Myself
I found
Now
there are no more chains
To
hold me down
There
must be some reason
That
it turned out this way
But
I know right now
There's
not one that I could say
I
loved you once
And
you will find love again
There
is no better message
That
I can send
Maybe
I shouldn't have made you
Feel
so tall
Maybe
all your problems I couldn't solve
Sleep
well knowing I am sorry
For
the pain I've caused
Just
know it's better feeling pain
Than
feeling nothing at all
MATCHES
TO BURN
I
need a reason to sing
I
can’t think of anything
And
I’ve been thinking a lot
About
a world not filled
With
things you could see
But
of all those things
I
dreamed to be
So
long ago that I forgot
When
down memory lane…
I
took a stroll
I
re-lived mostly pain…
and
now that pain…
It
takes its toll
I’ll
make a promise to you
And
then I won’t show
Yeah,
I’ll always leave you guessing
With
your insides now exposed
While
you’ve still yet to learn your lesson
Ahh…
but at least now you’re feeling the cold
Though
still… you keep on pressing
But
with this new insight you now behold
You
see the sun now glistening
off
of the snow
If
you listen closely
then
you’ll learn what I know
It
takes ten seconds now to see
What
took me twenty years to learn
Ain’t
no paper worth nothing to me
To
a girl… With matches to burn
To
a girl... with matches to burn..
HEARTSTRINGS
I
don't need you for inspiration
Nah,
I got plenty of that myself
I'm
not looking
for
someone to save me
Nah,
you can't leave that
to
anyone else
I
was just looking for someone
to
keep me and love me
For
all I am....
for
my better or worse
I
wasn't looking for someone
to
take me and leave me
Leaving
me feeling this angry,
helpless
remorse
As
I see you sitting in the chair
Staring
back at me
With
a cold and lonely stare
I
will remember for eternity
I
finally want back
What's
been taken
What
you stole
But
I will never get that
‘til
I regain control
I
am just another trophy
Collecting
dust
on
your mantle shelf
Something
that you've taken
That
once belonged
to
someone else
Now
as I feel forsaken
I
criticize my useless self
Plucking
at my heartstrings
Is
the music you play
only
for yourself
Never
a thought
for
someone else
ENDLESS
CHORUS
I'm
as deep as the day is long
That's
why it hurt me
To
find myself becoming weak
When
I needed to be strong
This
long day and my long face
Shows
you that I know no other way
So
it's back to bed with a worried head
An
unsteady mind and too much time
I
think too much about the past
Of
broken trust and how things don't last
I'm
as deep as the day is long
That's
why I rarely sleep
And
I only dream in song
Then
I wake up
And
I try to play along
To
the melody
That
my heart weeps
Since
you and me
We
broke our bond
I
find your ghost
Keeps
haunting me
With
rattling chains
And
shaking keys
I
try to hide
But
to no avail
Just
an endless chorus
About
how we failed...
NAMELESS
You
blew out my candle
Just
so yours could burn brighter
You
took my little girl
And
put bad things inside her
Thoughts
of not being good enough
Oh
how could she measure up
In
this morality fashion show
That
makes the rules up as they go
Living
in the shadows
and
staying low key
Blending
in with all
the
pretty things she sees
It
won’t make you famous
but
it will help you stay alive
Sometimes
remaining nameless
is
the reason why we thrive
You
blew out my candle
Just
so yours could burn brighter
You
burdened me with heavy load
Just
so you could tread lighter
You
laughed, pointed and sneered
When
I took the wheel and steered
And
as I wandered far off course
You
offered no form of support
No
helping hand to lend
Not
a guiding message sent
Left
abandoned on the shore
When
not thought useful anymore
You
kept looking at me
To
see the star I’d never be
But
did you question if your perception
Was
in fact reality?
You
blew out my candle
Just
so yours could burn brighter
When
I offered peace or war
You
declared, “Neither!”
We’re
locked in a state of paradox
Where
the focus has been lost
Always
scheming or else screaming
Trying
to get your point across
There’s
no more words?
I’m
at a loss…
BELOW
ZERO
My
past is trashed
Burned
all the photographs
I
sigh then deny when someone asks
No,
I never met my hero
On
a scale of one to ten
She
sent me to below zero
I’ve
lost all hope of healing
So
I try to numb the feeling
Playing
dumb my way of dealing
But
I still can’t turn the page
She
was a century ahead of her time
And
I was five years past my prime
So
what could have been so sublime
Instead
I lost my guide – my sage
The
old me
would
lose to the new me
Yet
those tired eyes
would
see right through me
I’ve
got a past
that
simply won’t let go
To
a flame that burned out long ago
I
once put my faith in someone else
Now
today I no longer trust myself
You
see I lost my nerve,
my
heart and my rightful place
That’s
when I felt
I
didn’t deserve to be part
of
the human race
She
gave me a chance to become a man
After
an epic fail…
Well
here I am
May
God strike me dead
Right
where I now stand…
Yeah,
I’m finally ready to get hurt again
LAMENT
You
can’t burn what’s already been burned
I
died inside once that’s when I learned
Something
is gone I can’t put it in words
I’ve
been far more reserved – afraid to be hurt
I
think it’s contagious
Are
you on the same page, kid?
Tell
me your story
Share
with me your pain
How
far was your fall from glory?
And
tell me what was her name?
As
the life left his eyes
He
whispered “Adellana Marie”
Then
muttered her last name…
At
least what it used to be
The
same fire that warms
May
do you great harm
The
many times I was warned
I
claimed false alarm
She
hurt me by giving up
I
hurt myself I loved too much
We
both were harmed
Though
void of intent
I
heard cries of a mom
And
so off I went
Soon
she found another
A
far more tragic event
He
put himself above her
And
now she’s left to lament
HE
SAID SHE SAID
She
woke up this morning
In
a place she’d never seen before
She
said…
I’m
ready to turn the page
but
first I must close some doors
I
thought that maybe I was learning
but
now I’m not so sure
I
said, “You’ve got to hold on”
She
said, “I’m not that strong”
“That’s
okay” is what I respond
She
said, “But I’m not where I belong…
I
took a right… But my right went wrong”
I
said in time
you’ll
find if you keep on trying
You
can hurdle your mind
and
leave it all behind
I
can’t weather this storm
I
can’t see the sunshine
The
last words
I
heard from you was that…
All
sense of hope was fading fast
But
what you forget
Is
that I cry, too
Unclench
your fists and remember this
Given
time all things must pass
Now
I’ve found the rhyme
Have
you found a reason?
Killing
time it ‘tis the season
A
bottle of wine can be so pleasing
I’m
feeling fine now my minds at ease
She
woke up this morning
In
a place she’s never been before
She
said…
I’m
ready to turn the page
But
first I must close some doors
I
thought that maybe
I
was learning
but
now I’m not so sure
I
said, You’ve got to hold on
You
say…
I’m
not that strong
That’s
okay is what I respond
She
said…
But
I’m not where I belong
I
took a right
but
my right went wrong
I
said in time you’ll find
if
you keep on trying
You
can hurdle your mind
and
leave it all behind
You
can weather the storm…
Maybe
I can weather this storm
You
can find your sunshine…
Maybe
I’ll watch the sunrise
She
woke up this morning
Or
should I say this afternoon
Had
she finally broken free?
I
can’t tell it’s far too soon
She
thought about the
Bridge
she’s been burning
Her
only way of escape
From
this land of ruin
She
said…
Well
I’ve been burning bridges
But
it’s better than burning crosses
When
everyone seems suspicious
You
start adding up your losses
End
up breaking more than dishes
That’s
how this whole thing got started
So
choose wisely for what you’re wishing
I
said try not to make things hard, kid
HALF
TOLD
Behind
my eyes I can’t let you in
The
best I can do is begin again
I
let you down and myself to
With
all the shit I put you through
Been
having a hard time
holding
my head up high
Been
having a hard time
sorting
truth from lies
I’m
not sure where
I
should go from here
I
don’t know if it shows
but
I’m f*cking scared
Seems
like everyone I know
has
disappeared…
through
the years
I’ve
been looking for something new
And
I don’t know what to do
I’ve
been seeking to make changes
Having
thoughts that are the strangest
I’ve
been hiding from my demons
While
pretending I don’t see them
Yet
I feel their presence creeping
Around
my room when I am sleeping
And
I find it quite disturbing
More
than a little bit unnerving
When
you’re trying to go straight
but
keep on swerving
And
before it’s too late
the
lesson you are learning
Is
you can’t go back and change the past
It
catches up with you living fast
As
shiny gold turns to rusty bronze
You
have to ask yourself where’d I go wrong?
As
you trace back the last twenty years
Wondering
how on earth did I end up here?
Yet
you’re unsure of whether to laugh or cry
Though
you’re not tired you close your eyes…
You
feel a tear and you don’t know why?
So
with retrospect you gaze inside
Never
been alone – not with pain and fear
Your
travelling companions through the years…
Yet
you’re scared of some
of
the past seeds you’ve sowed
So
your conscious carries such a heavy load…
I’ve
grown tired of these escapades
I’m
trying to take back the day
The
hands of time can’t be rewound
But
I refuse to stay sorrow bound
They
say everybody’s got a story
A
fall from grace or shining in glory
As
of now the tale’s only half told
And
my fate awaits
just
up open the road, yeah!
JEWELRY
BOX
I'm
not an underachiever
More
what you call
a
late bloomer
Took
me a long time
to
become a believer
Otherwise
I'd have been here
a
whole lot sooner
I
heard it said that
I
was past my prime
But
now I know
it
was just a rumor
Such
harsh words have
strengthened
me over time
Good
thing I still have
a
sense of humor
When
I said "take it
or
leave it..." she left it
Never
cared about money...
but
she cost me time
Ring's
in the jewelry box...
I
don't regret it
Replacements
for me...
I'm
sure they're waiting in line
Sacrifices
had to be made...
but
I'm at peace
You
only live once...
I'm
back to chasing my dream
After
what we both held inside
had
been released
Gave
her half of everything...
but
my self-esteem
When
I said "take it
or
leave it..." she left it
Never
cared about money...
but
she cost me time
Ring's
in the jewelry box...
I
don't regret it
Replacements
for me...
she's
got them waiting in line
Sacrifices
had to be made...
but
I'm at peace
You
only live once...
I'm
back to chasing my dream
After
what we both held inside
had
been released
Gave
her half of everything...
but
my self-esteem
I
heard it said that
I
was past my prime
But
now I know
it
was just a rumor
Such
harsh words have
strengthened
me over time
Good
thing I still have
a
sense of humor
I'm
not an underachiever
More
what you call
a
late bloomer
Took
me a long time
to
become a believer
Otherwise
we'd have been
here
a whole lot sooner
When
differences
in
opinions increased
And
they soon become
known
to be extreme
As
you find you own what
really
should only
have
been leased
Yes,
opposites attract
yet
it's best to
share
common themes
Sacrifices
had to be made....
But
I'm at peace
You
only live once...
I'm
back to chasing my dream
