SET LIST FOUR (4)
1 Married To
Something Else………...35
2 Watering the
Weeds
3 Rest In
Peace…………….37
4 Downward Spiral
5 Rat Park……………..38
6 Rehab
7 Something In My
Genes……...41
8 Alcohol
9 Empty
Bottle…………….43
10 My Best
Friends……………...44
11 Old
Friends…………..44
12 Let Me Live the
Dream …….46
MARRIED
TO SOMETHING ELSE
You
watch him come stumbling through the door
Find
yourself wondering if you can take it anymore
The
wedding ring bonds until death does part
But
what’s on your finger is not in your heart
After
ten years it’s still the same
While
the love is gone
The
smell of whiskey still remains
You
know you can’t let him drag you down
That’s
why some nights you live in another town
You
dream of a future where you are free
Maybe
it just wasn’t meant to be
You
stare at the door until he comes home
Thinking
your happiest days are spent alone
Its
tugging at your heart it replays in your mind
When
he’s sober he’s one of a kind
But
that only happens about half of the time
After
ten years it’s still the same
While
the love is gone
The
smell of whiskey still remains
You
know you can’t let him drag you down
That’s
why some nights you live in another town
You
dream of a future where you are free
Maybe
it just wasn’t meant to be
It’s
never too late for another start
Age
doesn’t matter when it concerns the heart
You
know you can’t let him drag you down
That’s
why some nights you live in another town
You
dream of a future where you are free
Maybe
it just wasn’t meant to be
It’s
time to say your peace and pray a little prayer
To
hope he’ll make it on his own when you’re not there
Then
maybe he’ll take a look down inside himself
And
realize he’s married to something else....
WATERING
THE WEEDS
There
are no more secrets
No
more trying to hide what you know is true
And
you better believe it
There’s
no more denying to yourself
No
use left in lying to everybody else
Self-crucifying…that’s
exactly what you do
Jesus
Christ!
Yeah,
he did it, too
What
game is left to play?
When
you can’t play pretend?
Just
what do you say?
When
you know it’s the end?
This
crippling disease has taken its toll
Will
never heal, can never mend
Will
never be whole
No
escaping the demons that have taken control
Show
me a man who has lost his strength
I’ll
show you a man who has lost his soul
And
once you’ve lost the love
Then
that’s the end…it’s time to go
While
you’ve been praying for salvation
I’ve
been thinking about
All
the time you’ve been wasting
Seems
this madness never stops
In
your mind you flip then flop
Riding
a broken down Merry-Go-Round
Wondering
when you’re gonna get off?
When
will you realize that…
We’ve
all just one life to live
You’ve
got your fingers and your toes
In
the cracks of the dam
As
you find you’re running out of hands
And
it’s still leaking like a sieve
You
had better back away
‘Cause
pretty soon something’s gonna give
When
will you realize that…
You’re
better off alone
You
can’t get blood from a stone
When’s
he coming home?
Don’t
you think that’s a bit too soon?
You
truly are your mother’s child
If
you believe this rose is going to bloom
Perhaps
it’s time to grab the weed wacker
For
your little secrets can stab like jabbing thorns
Like
how many times he’s really smacked ya
There
are no excuses left for you to use
By
now you know that you’ve been warned
Time
to turn off the hose
And
stop watering the weeds
There’s
already few too many flowers
Is
this what the world really needs?
REST
IN PEACE
When
the flames rose up
I
watched my house burn down
As
everything I had
Lay
smoldering on the ground
Yet
I wasn't sad
For
me and my cats got out
But
I got this sinking feeling
That
there was something else....
I
walked over to the lawn
Began
rummaging around
That's
when I remembered
My
ears didn't hear the sound
Of
a piercing shriek
Yelling
at me to wipe my feet
Saying
wash your hands twice
Before
you come touching me...
Oooooh.....
that's
right.....
Oooops....
she
must have been asleep...
So
when someone asks me,
"How's
my wife?"
I
say, "May she rest in peace"
DOWNWARD
SPIRAL
I've
got something on my mind
so
I better just say it
I
hear the music in my heart
but
I just can't play it
I
feel good inside but I can't explain it
I
don't mind when people cry
I
don't mind when it's raining
I
don't mind when most people die
At
least they stop their complaining
I've
been led by many people, places and things
There's
just so much out there in which to believe
I've
loved many people and then
had
to cut my strings
Just
to end up watching
each
of them leave
Have
to go and plant another seed
Go
and find something to fill the void
For
idle time is the devil's toy
For
sometimes being alone
Is
worse than being unemployed
Sometimes
you're Siegfried
Sometimes
you're the tiger
And
sometimes you're Roy
High
above
An
angel cries
And
down below
Even
storms have eyes
What
grows in me
I
now despise
Deep
inside
another
man dies
Blood
clot...........
Gunshot
It's
all the same
Heartache......
A
big mistake
Just
part of the game
Weeds
growing wild
A
saddened child
Just
who is to blame?
Another
birthday cake
Wear
black at the wake
We're
so glad you came
It's
a vicious cycle
You
better stay on your toes
It's
a downward spiral
It
comes and goes...
RAT
PARK
Like
the town witch on fire
I’ve
become a social pariah
I
have lost my desire
To
climb up any higher
There’s
an energy vampire
Now
standing right beside ya
There’s
lots to know that you can’t see
Until
you crack the code
or
else find the key
I
was in rough shape
Looking
for an escape
Started
feeling sick
Must
be time to get fixed
Look
inside to see what’s broken
Hoping
it’s not a hopeless situation
And
that I really am worth saving
Since
copping is not coping
When
stopping isn’t an option
Oh
how can I regain my focus?
It
seems we cling to our vices
In
major times of crisis
And
when we’re feeling isolated
Day
by day we’re being sedated
In
a state of constant bereavement
Because
we’ve failed to have our needs met
Hence
our only sense of achievement
Is
when we depart this world and leave it
Often
it is fleeting and lost after a moment
Though
you’re taking a beating
you
try your best not to show it
It
was when my world was dark
I
made some friends at rat park
They
said that I could stay there
That
there were lots of fun games to play there
In
lofts, down slides and on wheels we play
Oh
no more boring lonely days
I’ve
been growing stronger no longer do I crave
Of
thinking, drinking or sleeping away the day
Yeah,
some get lost and some get saved
Others
find themselves getting thrown away
Some
are still searching even after all these days
You
either make your escape or become one with the maze
Remember
if God grants wishes
To
all those who kneel and pray
That
means that somewhere there’s
A
fallen angel waiting to have his day
REHAB
Sometimes
I need a good talking to
To
set my mind at ease
It's
not always good for you
Doing
just what you please
When
the door is locked
You
just need the right keys
Stop
peaking through the keyhole
Get
up off your knees
Just
a glimpse of the whole
Will
never do
With
the door barred and chained
It's
so hard to get through
Like
a deer in headlights
Your
feet stick like glue
Denial
is just another lie
That
you believe is true
Yeah...
I've
been sedated
My
head played with
Medicated
Regulated
And
every word they said dictated
I've
been questioned and I stated
That
everything good I had I've traded
With
every step I've walked been baited
A
life like mine you begin to hate it
Well,
the doctor's in
And
he'll take your money
Then
when you're not looking
He'll
call you funny...
Names
behind your back
The
nurses are in on it I got a hunch
See
their crooked smiles
While
they're serving lunch....
Their
white gowns
Should
be striped with black
You
gotta pay the bills
That'll
pay for all the pills
They
say will cure your ills
While
they're raking in the mils
They
locked him in the closet
And
then they lost the key
Twenty
years later
When
they finally found it
They
finally set him free
Though
he looked much older
He
looked okay to me
Though
he acted much colder
Like
we all expected him to be
Rehab
- you never come out
The
way you came in
Rehab
- Get drunk off words
When
they take your gin
Rehab
- You'll never be the same
Rehab
- you'll never go there again
When
he gets home he has a drink
Passes
out at the kitchen sink
Though
his liver's fine his mind is bloated
Just
one drink and his head exploded
Rehab
- you never come out
The
way you came in
Rehab
- Get drunk off words
When
they take your gin
Rehab
- You'll never be the same
Rehab
- you'll never go there again
SOMETHING
IN MY GENES
I've
got the life juice
Flowing
inside me...
Sometimes
Other
times
It's
been denied from me
I
think that depression
Is
starting to kick in
Gotta
find myself a room
And
get checked in...
Quick!
Gotta
get it together
Or
else just keep on getting sick
Boy
I'm in the mix
Into
getting my fix
Fu$%
being rich!
I'm
just another hypocrite
Who
talks and talks
But
it's just more sh$%
So
you learn to live with it
Become
a walking regret
Or
else a song-writing poet
Boy
life sucks
Don't
you know it?
I'm
a druggie
I'm
an alki
I'm
a nicotine fiend
I'm
a loser
An
abuser
Do
you know what I mean?
What
I've done
Can't
be undone
Oh,
the things I've seen
This
monkey on my back weighs a ton
A
weight so heavy I cannot out run
There
must be something in my genes
This
monkey on my back weighs a ton
A
weight so heavy I cannot out run
There's
always something in my jeans
Just
as the sun comes up
My
head goes down
I
pick up the paper
And
then I put it down
I
may waste my life
But
at least it's just my own
You
won't read about
Any
killing sprees from me
When
you get home
I
may be on page fifty-six
Another
kid, another lesson
Another
druggie looking for his fix
Wrong
place, wrong time
Got
bagged for possession
In
the home of the brave
And
the land of the free
You
get to choose
Your
own obsession
I'm
a druggie
I'm
an alki
I'm
a nicotine fiend
I'm
a loser
An
abuser
Do
you know what I mean?
What
I've done
Can't
be undone
Oh,
the things I've seen
I've
always got something
To
write about
I
always find myself in a tunnel
In
which I can't get out
As
the light keeps getting
Dimmer
in the distance
Every
night I'm on the card
For
the heavyweight bout
I
once was strong
But
now I'm beginning
To
have my doubts
I
think I may be in need
Of
some assistance
ALCOHOL
I
am a victim though I feel like a hero
You
make me feel like number one yet I'm a zero
All
this you put me through and still I go back to you
What
is wrong with me? Why can't you let me be?
I
saw you once and then I saw you twice
Now
I see you all the time
When
everything is said and done
I'm
the one who pays the price
You
never treated me kind
I
had to descend from the highest mountains
Just
to come back to earth
I
climbed up the slopes of the valleys
For
what any of it is worth
Still
I come back to you after all that you put me through
You
and I walked hand in hand and I picked you up when you fell
I
thought you were my ticket to heaven and still I landed here in hell
Our
conversations were one-sided…I never tried to hide it
You've
never given me good advice
Still
I come back to you
When
everything is said and done… I'm the one who pays the price
Every
time I try to stay away you cross my path nearly everyday
I
fight so hard to walk a straight line
I
fight so hard to leave you behind
Once
false step and I'm back again and no further on then where I began
Still
I come back to you after all that you put me through
What
is wrong with me? Why won't you let me be?
EMPTY
BOTTLE
I
know you're thinking
Pondering
tomorrow
I
finally quit drinking
Drowning
in my sorrow
Saved
myself from sinking
I
put down the bottle
When
it started leaking
Some
things you only borrow
So
I know what you're seeking
Who
do you lead...whom do you follow?
We
both know of what I'm speaking
What
do you need and what is hollow?
Do
you see your reflection
In
an empty bottle?
You
don't know where you’re going
Only
God knows where you’ve been
But
the river keeps on flowing
And
the part of you unknowing
Always
goes wading on in
Signs
read danger, don't fall in
Or
you don't know the trouble you're in
Water
so sweet it tastes just like gin
Take
a dip and be baptized
In
the pool of sin
Yet
this path you walk
Wasn't
chosen all on your own
As
the thoughts you think are so deceiving
Everyday
drifting farther from home
Now
you regret the day you thought of leaving
The
hard stuff's in the freezer
The
30 pack's in the fridge
The
troubles of the world are building
Which
way to the bridge?
You
don't know where you’re going
Only
God knows where you’ve been
But
the river keeps on flowing
And
the part of you unknowing
Always
goes wading on in
Signs
read danger, don't fall in
Or
you don't know the trouble you're in
Water
so sweet it tastes just like gin
Take
a dip and be baptized
In
the pool of sin
I
know you're thinking
Pondering
tomorrow
I
finally quit drinking
Drowning
in my sorrow
Saved
myself from sinking
I
put down the bottle
When
it started leaking
Some
things you only borrow
So
I know what you're seeking
Who
do you lead...whom do you follow?
We
both know of what I'm speaking
What
do you need and what is hollow?
Do
you see your reflection
In
an empty bottle?
MY
BEST FRIENDS
One
day at a time
Step
by step
Suck
toxins down
With
every breath
In
my time of weakness
I
was never all alone
I
despise the day
Tobacco
seeds were sewn
Hand
in hand
Right
by my side
And
when we went
Our
separate ways
A
part of me died
My
twenty little friends
Though
small in size
Became
my foes
Whom
I now despise
When
the truth is clear
They
kill you slow
There’s
no pleading ignorance
When
everybody knows
OLD
FRIENDS
It
looks like
I’m
stuck inside the house again
Because
I said goodbye
To
all of my party friends
Going
straight
can
be so tough
When
I’m alone
it’s
especially rough
That
is why I write for you
It
really kills the time thinking up rhymes
After
all that I’ve been through
If
you listen up then I can save you some time
I’ve
written stoned
I’ve
written sauced
But
I had trouble
Getting
my point across
While
trying to find myself
I
often got lost
But
with the devil gone
Now
I’m the boss
The
liquor store’s
It’s
still open
My
dealer
He’s
still smokin’
Only
one call away
I
could ease my mind
Get
a little number
That’s
why I took his number
And
I threw it away
Before
I throw it all away
Girls
who’ve been with me
They
always forced me to choose
Now
every one of them is history
And
I’m the one left singing the blues
Anytime
I hear about old friends
It’s
only been bad news
Something
like, “Hey, he’s in jail”
“Can
I borrow some money for bail?”
I’d
ask how he got there
They
answered the cops found all the clues
The
men in blue arrived at his house…
And
started asking questions
Smelled
something funny…
So
he got bagged for possession
When
he goes to church
He
should ask god for repentance
The
last time he got called into the station
Judge
gave him probation
With
a two-year suspended sentence
The
list goes on and on
And
it keeps getting worse
All
my friends are hexed
I
had to cross my name
Off
of the list
Before
I was next
For
this black cloud hanging over me
It’ll
follow me for two years
Before
I am free
And
if my probation officer I don’t see
I’ll
sleep for the next six months
Inside
a correctional facility
LET
ME LIVE THE DREAM
I
woke up… My mind was racing
When
my feet hit the floor… they soon started pacing
Craving
the apple I was once tasting
Footsteps
to the past I began retracing
Running
from old enemies I once was facing
All
the while believing I was escaping
I
never show my weakness even when I am breaking up inside
The
only thing stronger than my ego is my foolish sense of pride
Sometimes
I sacrifice all I've made
To
live within a lie
The
only cross to which I'm bound
Is
burning me alive
Oh
my, my, my, my... let me live the dream
Of
escaping the demons... alive and unseen
From
the blaring whispers of compulsion
Very
few mortals can hide
Freedom
is just another word for failure
For
all those who have lost when they've tried
For
the key to unlocking the mind is different
To
each be them young or old
In
trying to reach what they're searching for
Yet
have never been able to hold
Oh
my, my, my, my... let me live the dream
Of
escaping the demons... alive and unseen
I
tried staying with my own kind
I
tried swimming within my own mind
But
so slowly the path unwinds
Though
I keep following what I hope to find
Even
when life looks grave as you're running out of time
Could
reality ever match my dream?
Will
this nightmare ever end?
Will
a new day ever begin?
Can
I learn to make myself whole again?
To
live without and change within?
Oh
my, my, my, my...
let
me live the dream
Of
escaping the demons...
alive
and unseen
Out
of sight can mean out of mind
Yet
what I am running from is never far behind
Once
distant memories now mirror the present
As
the shadowless clock has stopped telling time
No,
you can't escape the voices
Echoing
inside of your ear
As
thoughts become desires
Speaking
all too loud and clear
Although
you may bow your head
While
pretending not to hear
When
the calming silence is gone
You
know what is there
Oh
my, my, my, my...
let
me live the dream
Of
escaping the demons...
alive
and unseen
